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...Ok so what has been going on in my disfunctional world recently:
FAMILY--Me and my momma dukes haven't been fighting like we usually do lately...Actually we haven't fought at all recently which is a good thing...Hopefully i don't screw it up :-D...Me and Heidi haven't been talking lately...Actually Heidi hasn't been talking to me lately...It's all good...Heidi can not talk to me...I'll give her the space that she wants...Doesn't matter...When she's ready to talk to me again, she can talk to me...She will be my sister forever and i will be here for her forever because she's my sister and i love her :-D...I just realized that i never really updated about my family before now...It's all good...I haven't updated in like a month and i know what i'm saying is corny, but hey if you don't like it FUCK YOU!! :-D
FRIENDS--I have been chilling with my West Babylonians a lot recently...How i love them oh so much...I know that those boys will have my back for anything and i love them for it :-D...I haven't really chilled or talked to Verla lately...She's doing her own shit with work and school and her new boy Dave...It's all good though because i feel a trip to Hofstra coming up soon...I got Ricalya a job with catering...She started her first job...We are currently talking again so i guess that's pretty neat...I chill with Siobhan occasionally...She's doing her own thing and i'm doing my own thing...I feel bad though because she calls me to chill and shit, but i always already have plans with other people and sometimes the other people don't like to chill with her and i don't want to ditch them because it's fucked up, but she has Chris so i don't know...She usually is always with Chris and when she isn't she'll call me upor even when she is she'll call me up, but like i feel bad because i don't want to be around when it's just 3 of us chilling...I feel out of place so i let her have "alone time" with Chris it's all good...Even when she's with Chris she'll ask me to chill because it's not just them, but even the people that she chills with I don't want to chill with because it's just wierd going from the people i'm used to chilling with everyday to chilling with the people that she chills with everyday...They are 2 different groups and honestly only Chris can fit into both of them nicely because he's friends with both groups, but i don't know...It's wierd...And plus when she does chill with other people all they do is smoke and get fucked up like that and i'm not down for that because i don't want to smoke anymore...I miss my Siobhan...Oh how i love her so, but as always me and her can go weeks and months without seeing each other, but once we do, it's a wonderful thing :-D...Bay Shore??...People exsist there??...I haven't even noticed...I don't even chill with anyone from Bay Shore anymore...I wouldn't mind partying with them again, but they never do anything...Not the people i chill with anyway...They just get a small group together and drink somewhere, but that's corny...Being in West Babylon i'm used to the big parties where everyone in the town is at...I love those...I love my West Babylon boys...George is amazing and funny and he's my Queens homie...J.Jetta is so worried about his car all the time, but it's so funny i love him for it...I wouldn't change him for anything...Scholl is my shoulder to cry on...I can talk to that kid about anything and he can always talk sense into me in the way where i won't be upset...I love him...He has a lady now...Alysha...She is so adorable...She's awesome...Lisi has been one big roller coaster since we broke up, but now we are at the greatest place ever...He's like my brother now...He's considered like my family just like i'm considered part of his family and i wouldn't have it any other way...He has a lady too...Erin and oh my god are we alike...She's like the Twin i never had or actually the Twin that's a few years younger than me, not born on the same day at all, don't look a like and we have different parents, but it's ok because we're still Twins because we know exactly what the other one is thinking and we say the exact same thing at the same time...Lots Of Love :-D...Ray Cody is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G...He's just so funny and he gets so sick when he's drunk, but when he wants to be and i have seen it he becomes so sweet and genuine and i love that about him...That brings me to my next topic...
GUYS--I am still single and i HATE it...Everyone has someone now...Verla = Dave...Siobhan = Chris...Lisi = Erin...Scholl = Alysha...It's all good though because my boys don't make me feel left out, but it doesn't mean i still don't...I hooked up with Scholl before he started talk to Alysha...He would have been a good catch, but it's all good...I like Alysha...Couldn't find anyone better for him...I stopped the whole me just hooking up with people or just sleeping with them...I've decided that i'm only going to sleep with people that i'm dating and only hook up with people i might consider dating...It's been going ok for me so far...I've been hooking up with Ray lately...I don't know the deal with him...He doesn't want a relationship or anything, but yet he's always hooking up with me (or most of the time) and i don't see him hooking up with anyone else except one person and i'm not going to mention any names because i'm not at liberty to, but he was drunk and even he said he really didn't know how or what happend so i don't get it...I, on the other hand, did continue the guy hunt after the him hooking up with someone drunk incident...I hooked up with this awesome kid Zack...He was so hot oh man...If i didn't have my morals i probably would have slept with him, but i took every ounce in me to not give in and i didn't which i'm happy about because i found out some shit that i don't feel like getting into...It did feel nice though sleeping next (not with) Zach that night and waking up with him next to me in the morning and giving him a kiss...I love doing that...I swear if i had a relationship with a guy i wouldn't care if we had sex as long as i can sleep next to him cuddling with him and wake the next morning to kiss him and show him how much i love him...To me that's a truly amazing moment, but do i have a guy to do that with??...NO!!...And why is that??...Because guys are the most confusing creatures on earth...And they think women are confusing...Oh please...Guys can't even decide for themselves or even decide what they want let alone seperate their own minds from their dicks minds...
FLORIDA TRIP--Me, J9 and Jess have decided that we will be flying to the lovely state of Florida and then the 3 of us are going to invest into renting a car...I'm excited...We're going to do it all...Get fucked up over and over again...Me and Jess were talking about going to Disney and/or Universal so that should be neat...We're going to see Jess's parents to...Apparently her brother wants to meet me because she was talking to him about me...I'm excited to meet him...I just hope i'm not a dissappointment...LoL...
...Wow after all that i think i'm actaully done...LoL...A lot happens in a month...Go figure...:-D
...Done Now
FAMILY--Me and my momma dukes haven't been fighting like we usually do lately...Actually we haven't fought at all recently which is a good thing...Hopefully i don't screw it up :-D...Me and Heidi haven't been talking lately...Actually Heidi hasn't been talking to me lately...It's all good...Heidi can not talk to me...I'll give her the space that she wants...Doesn't matter...When she's ready to talk to me again, she can talk to me...She will be my sister forever and i will be here for her forever because she's my sister and i love her :-D...I just realized that i never really updated about my family before now...It's all good...I haven't updated in like a month and i know what i'm saying is corny, but hey if you don't like it FUCK YOU!! :-D
FRIENDS--I have been chilling with my West Babylonians a lot recently...How i love them oh so much...I know that those boys will have my back for anything and i love them for it :-D...I haven't really chilled or talked to Verla lately...She's doing her own shit with work and school and her new boy Dave...It's all good though because i feel a trip to Hofstra coming up soon...I got Ricalya a job with catering...She started her first job...We are currently talking again so i guess that's pretty neat...I chill with Siobhan occasionally...She's doing her own thing and i'm doing my own thing...I feel bad though because she calls me to chill and shit, but i always already have plans with other people and sometimes the other people don't like to chill with her and i don't want to ditch them because it's fucked up, but she has Chris so i don't know...She usually is always with Chris and when she isn't she'll call me upor even when she is she'll call me up, but like i feel bad because i don't want to be around when it's just 3 of us chilling...I feel out of place so i let her have "alone time" with Chris it's all good...Even when she's with Chris she'll ask me to chill because it's not just them, but even the people that she chills with I don't want to chill with because it's just wierd going from the people i'm used to chilling with everyday to chilling with the people that she chills with everyday...They are 2 different groups and honestly only Chris can fit into both of them nicely because he's friends with both groups, but i don't know...It's wierd...And plus when she does chill with other people all they do is smoke and get fucked up like that and i'm not down for that because i don't want to smoke anymore...I miss my Siobhan...Oh how i love her so, but as always me and her can go weeks and months without seeing each other, but once we do, it's a wonderful thing :-D...Bay Shore??...People exsist there??...I haven't even noticed...I don't even chill with anyone from Bay Shore anymore...I wouldn't mind partying with them again, but they never do anything...Not the people i chill with anyway...They just get a small group together and drink somewhere, but that's corny...Being in West Babylon i'm used to the big parties where everyone in the town is at...I love those...I love my West Babylon boys...George is amazing and funny and he's my Queens homie...J.Jetta is so worried about his car all the time, but it's so funny i love him for it...I wouldn't change him for anything...Scholl is my shoulder to cry on...I can talk to that kid about anything and he can always talk sense into me in the way where i won't be upset...I love him...He has a lady now...Alysha...She is so adorable...She's awesome...Lisi has been one big roller coaster since we broke up, but now we are at the greatest place ever...He's like my brother now...He's considered like my family just like i'm considered part of his family and i wouldn't have it any other way...He has a lady too...Erin and oh my god are we alike...She's like the Twin i never had or actually the Twin that's a few years younger than me, not born on the same day at all, don't look a like and we have different parents, but it's ok because we're still Twins because we know exactly what the other one is thinking and we say the exact same thing at the same time...Lots Of Love :-D...Ray Cody is A.M.A.Z.I.N.G...He's just so funny and he gets so sick when he's drunk, but when he wants to be and i have seen it he becomes so sweet and genuine and i love that about him...That brings me to my next topic...
GUYS--I am still single and i HATE it...Everyone has someone now...Verla = Dave...Siobhan = Chris...Lisi = Erin...Scholl = Alysha...It's all good though because my boys don't make me feel left out, but it doesn't mean i still don't...I hooked up with Scholl before he started talk to Alysha...He would have been a good catch, but it's all good...I like Alysha...Couldn't find anyone better for him...I stopped the whole me just hooking up with people or just sleeping with them...I've decided that i'm only going to sleep with people that i'm dating and only hook up with people i might consider dating...It's been going ok for me so far...I've been hooking up with Ray lately...I don't know the deal with him...He doesn't want a relationship or anything, but yet he's always hooking up with me (or most of the time) and i don't see him hooking up with anyone else except one person and i'm not going to mention any names because i'm not at liberty to, but he was drunk and even he said he really didn't know how or what happend so i don't get it...I, on the other hand, did continue the guy hunt after the him hooking up with someone drunk incident...I hooked up with this awesome kid Zack...He was so hot oh man...If i didn't have my morals i probably would have slept with him, but i took every ounce in me to not give in and i didn't which i'm happy about because i found out some shit that i don't feel like getting into...It did feel nice though sleeping next (not with) Zach that night and waking up with him next to me in the morning and giving him a kiss...I love doing that...I swear if i had a relationship with a guy i wouldn't care if we had sex as long as i can sleep next to him cuddling with him and wake the next morning to kiss him and show him how much i love him...To me that's a truly amazing moment, but do i have a guy to do that with??...NO!!...And why is that??...Because guys are the most confusing creatures on earth...And they think women are confusing...Oh please...Guys can't even decide for themselves or even decide what they want let alone seperate their own minds from their dicks minds...
FLORIDA TRIP--Me, J9 and Jess have decided that we will be flying to the lovely state of Florida and then the 3 of us are going to invest into renting a car...I'm excited...We're going to do it all...Get fucked up over and over again...Me and Jess were talking about going to Disney and/or Universal so that should be neat...We're going to see Jess's parents to...Apparently her brother wants to meet me because she was talking to him about me...I'm excited to meet him...I just hope i'm not a dissappointment...LoL...
...Wow after all that i think i'm actaully done...LoL...A lot happens in a month...Go figure...:-D
...Done Now