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[slayemin]

I don't know why I bother to post. Nobody reads this shit. It doesn't benefit *me* in any way to spend time writing about what I'm doing and/or how I'm doing it. I could be spending that time writing more code. I guess I have this lingering fantasy that some day down the road I'll be a bit more well known or famous and people would actually be interested in reading about what I have to say. That may just be a delusion of future grandeur, right? In this fantasy of mine, I have this strange belief that a mind is a holy temple and its products are the thoughts and ideas which come out of it (which is why I believe promoting a healthy mind is great). Some day, lots of people might wonder what kinds of problems I encountered and how I overcame them. Like, right now I'm struggling to figure out how to stitch together two chunks of terrain mesh which are of different resolution while avoiding the gaps caused by T-intersections. It's a bit challenging, but I have faith I'll figure it out if I keep pushing at it as hard as I can. Then I can write about my solution and people will find it helpful in solving their own problem, and then they'll search more of my stuff and find that also helpful, and then they'll mentally bookmark me as a good resource for knowledge. But, what's the point of all that if it doesn't directly benefit me?

Right now, I'm not going to create any articles on anything because:
1) I don't see the point
2) It's too much effort to setup the infrastructure (website hosting & blog)
3) It'd take a lot of effort to create articles to my standard of quality
4) They're not going to get read, so why do it if nobody is reading?
5) I'm a nobody.

By the way, this Nightwish song ("Over the hills and far away") is bad ass.