Oct 19, 2004 23:51
so tonight i was supposed to go to this concert. it was billy talent (boooo), but metric and DFA we're opening, and i was going to go just to see them. i showed up late thinking i wouldn't have to wait as long. i got there and there were so many little kids and stuff, in a line-up that was still miles long. i just got frustrated and bummed out. i sold my ticket for $50 bucks to some guy and left. kind of sucks. oh well, i'm excited to see muse next week with jessie.
i kind of wish i had a lot of money so that i could buy a car and get into racing or drifting or something. because i kind of think it's really cool.
but ultimately it would be impossible to get into, so i should just play gran turismo more and forget about it. my life feels so stale and frustrated right now. i need a new job. i'm wondering what it would be like to have a girlfriend. someone to spend time with. i feel like i have a lot of affection that needs to go somewhere else besides my dog and thinking about snowboarding 24/7. watching c.s.i. and star trek all day gets old. i guess i start that photo class soon, but that's only one day a week. maybe i should go to college or something, i don't know. i still can't seem to regain a scrap of creativity, it's so frustrating to know that i have the skills to make things happen, i just can't think of what i want to film or draw, or what to write, or what to take pictures of. good news is that i'm still pretty happy, not depressed. solely based on the fact that i don't EVER have to go back to high school.
what a bunch of crap to write in a stupid journal.