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today wasn't that exciting. i just ran a bunch of errands and did schoolwork. i had a ton since i took off 3 days last week. i have to try and makeup the rest of the work and tests in this last week before school ends.
this weekend was crazy. some parts of it i'd rather not share. but for once in the past 3 years i felt normal. i actually felt happy. i need to contact a doctor or a counselor soon. i'm sick of this shit. i've been going through this for way too long.
i talked to cassie online tonight for awhile. like always, everytime we talk to eachother, we feel closer. i swear that girl is amazing. i'm praying that everything runs smoothly over the summer. if i can't see her i'll probably be a wreck.
i made plans with ally for next saturday. [FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW: i've been friends with ally since we were in elementary. i knew her from church. shes the pastor's daughter. i dated her from like middle school to early highschool. then we really didn't call eachother and we never hung out. long story short, we got together for a friends birthday party two months ago. i drove so i didn't drink that much. ally had drank. towards the end of the night she got pissed and didn't want me to drive because i had been drinking. i refused because i had only had 2, and by then, they were out of my system. she was still drunk. she got really mad and said a lot of things. i told her bye and drove off. told her to find her own ride. i was really upset because she said some aweful things about me. the way she described me, it wasn't who i was at all. even know we had lost sight of our personalities, it hurt me that she could imagine me in that light.] so anyways i'm hanging out with her friday. were going to a friends grad party and then HempFest. i hope everything runs smoothly. she apologized and all so i just forgave her. i'm not much of a grudge holder. i'm too sensitive for my own good. *sigh*
kisses and cuts
Dean
this weekend was crazy. some parts of it i'd rather not share. but for once in the past 3 years i felt normal. i actually felt happy. i need to contact a doctor or a counselor soon. i'm sick of this shit. i've been going through this for way too long.
i talked to cassie online tonight for awhile. like always, everytime we talk to eachother, we feel closer. i swear that girl is amazing. i'm praying that everything runs smoothly over the summer. if i can't see her i'll probably be a wreck.
i made plans with ally for next saturday. [FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW: i've been friends with ally since we were in elementary. i knew her from church. shes the pastor's daughter. i dated her from like middle school to early highschool. then we really didn't call eachother and we never hung out. long story short, we got together for a friends birthday party two months ago. i drove so i didn't drink that much. ally had drank. towards the end of the night she got pissed and didn't want me to drive because i had been drinking. i refused because i had only had 2, and by then, they were out of my system. she was still drunk. she got really mad and said a lot of things. i told her bye and drove off. told her to find her own ride. i was really upset because she said some aweful things about me. the way she described me, it wasn't who i was at all. even know we had lost sight of our personalities, it hurt me that she could imagine me in that light.] so anyways i'm hanging out with her friday. were going to a friends grad party and then HempFest. i hope everything runs smoothly. she apologized and all so i just forgave her. i'm not much of a grudge holder. i'm too sensitive for my own good. *sigh*
kisses and cuts
Dean