309 weeks
WOW 309 weeks since last update. anyways I've almost completely forgot about this site but I had something I wanted to write but didnt want to put it on myspace.
Lately I've been missing my childhood. I guess watching my daughter grow up is whats bringing up these feelings. But I guess I miss the innocence, but mainly I think I miss the newness effect of everything. Every taste, emotion, thought and experiance was amazing.
I remember when I first started liking girls and everytime Id be around a cute one I'd get red faced and shy and she would do the samething. I always got those little butterflies in my stomach and I would have to fight my self just to mutter the littlest HI! I remember my first kiss, her name was Aubrey Johnson and we were in my garage (a pretty girl but no real personality). But then I remember my first french kiss like it was yesterday. I was 10 yrs old in the back of Amber Mcgowan grandmas minivan. We were on our way home from one of Ambers dance shows around 10 o'clock at night and we were holding hands,stairing into each other and whispering. Then she leaned in and kissed me. It blew my fuckin mind. Then when we pulled up to my house and we stopped kissing, as I walked up to the house; my body was doing all kinds of crazy things. My tongue was tingeling and dint stop for awile. My stomach was fluttering and my heart was beating at 1,000 mph. I miss those emotions, they were better than any drug man could make.
I also miss just running through an open feild with arms wide open for absolutely no reason. It was so beautifal, flowers all around me, the flying peices of dandylions and butterflies all around. I miss the small apple orchard down the road from me and all the little games me and my friends would play in it. I miss not having a worry in the world, always having a smile on my face. Singing and dancing around like a school girl. Everything was just so new and I couldnt wait to wake up the next to great the next experiance.
But those days are gone now. But i would give anything to get them or those feelings back.
Lately I've been missing my childhood. I guess watching my daughter grow up is whats bringing up these feelings. But I guess I miss the innocence, but mainly I think I miss the newness effect of everything. Every taste, emotion, thought and experiance was amazing.
I remember when I first started liking girls and everytime Id be around a cute one I'd get red faced and shy and she would do the samething. I always got those little butterflies in my stomach and I would have to fight my self just to mutter the littlest HI! I remember my first kiss, her name was Aubrey Johnson and we were in my garage (a pretty girl but no real personality). But then I remember my first french kiss like it was yesterday. I was 10 yrs old in the back of Amber Mcgowan grandmas minivan. We were on our way home from one of Ambers dance shows around 10 o'clock at night and we were holding hands,stairing into each other and whispering. Then she leaned in and kissed me. It blew my fuckin mind. Then when we pulled up to my house and we stopped kissing, as I walked up to the house; my body was doing all kinds of crazy things. My tongue was tingeling and dint stop for awile. My stomach was fluttering and my heart was beating at 1,000 mph. I miss those emotions, they were better than any drug man could make.
I also miss just running through an open feild with arms wide open for absolutely no reason. It was so beautifal, flowers all around me, the flying peices of dandylions and butterflies all around. I miss the small apple orchard down the road from me and all the little games me and my friends would play in it. I miss not having a worry in the world, always having a smile on my face. Singing and dancing around like a school girl. Everything was just so new and I couldnt wait to wake up the next to great the next experiance.
But those days are gone now. But i would give anything to get them or those feelings back.
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