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Life has been absolutely crazy. i know i haven't updated this in forever and a day and a big part of that is there have been some serious struggles between my Master and i. for a while i really thought things were over. On His end then on mine. it felt almost as though we were both putting in all of the effort and it just wasn't matching up.
we've had a lot of serious talks about what we want and love and needs and whether we can do this and how much more can we put in. we both were hurt and kind of let down by the other. i really think part of it was mixed expectations on both sides.
At this point in time, we are working on things. i absolutely adore Him and i am very glad that we are fighting for what has been amazing for so long. we had an amazing time on sunday. Perfect and exactly what i needed to show that i can reinvest into my slavery without tihnking it's a lost cause. I'm sure it also allowed Him to feel comfortable reinvesting in His Dominance without thinking the same.
the night in question...
It started with Him surprising me at work. We had plans to meet up after and head to a motel to get quiet time, as i still live with roommates. After i was done work we went pretty much straight to the hotel. When we got to the room there were some smacks, i got collared with the new heavy iron collar (that pinches something fierce), blindfolded and was told to start sucking His cock. i love this task. Love His cock. at one point He pulled me off and put a condom on then shoved my mouth back on. I'm sure my face was priceless. i Never EVER give Him head with a condom on. tells me to get back to work so i try to give head with this damn thing on his cock, feels weird. don't like it. then He tells me to get on it. i blink twice. He told me i could fuck Him. i almost argued. We've only ever had sex one other time. i finally got on. now, i can't come on top. part of it is self concious, the other part.. just doesnt' do it. so we switched and He fucked me hard and good and it was.... amazing. i couldn't even tell You how many times i came. After sex He cuddled up with me and i got hair strokes. perfection. Finally we crawled out of bed and went to get some magic cards as we are geeks and some food.
get back to the hotel, a few games of magic and some more play time. i got hypno play. i LOVE Him in my head. He put new triggers in. One is for the sensation of lactating... really interesting. the other is to become a complete bimbo/sex slave. that one was very intense. i remember Him asking me what day it was and i couldn't answer. 2+2 was a hard question. very very sexy.
one point in the morning He blindfolded me, diapered me, tossed me in the closet. very very hot. then we played another game of magic, parted ways, and i grinned non-stop since.
We are hoping to meet up tomorrow, which will be nice. i'm in teh process of getting my own place, hopefully that will happen soon. i think that is all for now..
slave_anon.
we've had a lot of serious talks about what we want and love and needs and whether we can do this and how much more can we put in. we both were hurt and kind of let down by the other. i really think part of it was mixed expectations on both sides.
At this point in time, we are working on things. i absolutely adore Him and i am very glad that we are fighting for what has been amazing for so long. we had an amazing time on sunday. Perfect and exactly what i needed to show that i can reinvest into my slavery without tihnking it's a lost cause. I'm sure it also allowed Him to feel comfortable reinvesting in His Dominance without thinking the same.
the night in question...
It started with Him surprising me at work. We had plans to meet up after and head to a motel to get quiet time, as i still live with roommates. After i was done work we went pretty much straight to the hotel. When we got to the room there were some smacks, i got collared with the new heavy iron collar (that pinches something fierce), blindfolded and was told to start sucking His cock. i love this task. Love His cock. at one point He pulled me off and put a condom on then shoved my mouth back on. I'm sure my face was priceless. i Never EVER give Him head with a condom on. tells me to get back to work so i try to give head with this damn thing on his cock, feels weird. don't like it. then He tells me to get on it. i blink twice. He told me i could fuck Him. i almost argued. We've only ever had sex one other time. i finally got on. now, i can't come on top. part of it is self concious, the other part.. just doesnt' do it. so we switched and He fucked me hard and good and it was.... amazing. i couldn't even tell You how many times i came. After sex He cuddled up with me and i got hair strokes. perfection. Finally we crawled out of bed and went to get some magic cards as we are geeks and some food.
get back to the hotel, a few games of magic and some more play time. i got hypno play. i LOVE Him in my head. He put new triggers in. One is for the sensation of lactating... really interesting. the other is to become a complete bimbo/sex slave. that one was very intense. i remember Him asking me what day it was and i couldn't answer. 2+2 was a hard question. very very sexy.
one point in the morning He blindfolded me, diapered me, tossed me in the closet. very very hot. then we played another game of magic, parted ways, and i grinned non-stop since.
We are hoping to meet up tomorrow, which will be nice. i'm in teh process of getting my own place, hopefully that will happen soon. i think that is all for now..
slave_anon.