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this time one year ago i was hanging out at tc's, reunited with acquaintances that i had left for a summer in madison. jon bought me cupcakes for my birthday, and someone at the bar tried to eat one. i suppose a whole year has gone by, and i'm no longer a teenager starting tomorrow. not that any big change will happen except that i can't be a kid anymore. 19 is considered adult but not adult enough to me. the rest of my life is about to hit me, and i'm trying to get ready for it.
so many things have changed since one year ago. i have never worked so hard for someone i love, but it has been worth it all the way. people i thought were potential good friends turned out to be the enemy. for a few weeks now, i've realized that i don't really have any friends except jon and napoleon (a little sad.) i did it to myself. in some instances it's for the better, but i would've liked to have held onto a few. i crave to be around people sometimes but only in small doses. i get exhausted with just talking. opening my mouth and conversating. the same conversation. the same excuses. same compliments. same polite facade.
i think i'm going to bury myself in art, books, and school until i graduate. afterwards, hopefully things will fall into place.
everyone get your knapsacks on. yay for school.
so many things have changed since one year ago. i have never worked so hard for someone i love, but it has been worth it all the way. people i thought were potential good friends turned out to be the enemy. for a few weeks now, i've realized that i don't really have any friends except jon and napoleon (a little sad.) i did it to myself. in some instances it's for the better, but i would've liked to have held onto a few. i crave to be around people sometimes but only in small doses. i get exhausted with just talking. opening my mouth and conversating. the same conversation. the same excuses. same compliments. same polite facade.
i think i'm going to bury myself in art, books, and school until i graduate. afterwards, hopefully things will fall into place.
everyone get your knapsacks on. yay for school.