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It's cold, I am tired and stubborn about sleep, and I am done with studying my on-line class.
Only so much about eastern energy flow theory and korean you can learn in one night before your eyes cross.
And sleep? Sleep will just bring frustration. The Dream Time is no longer sleepy time. Oh no. Remember how I used to complain that I didn't get a chance to meditate? ...my guides laugh at my calm, saying "We do that later. Now, we are going to go fix something."
I get messages to pass along that I forget the second I wake up. I meet unfamiliar totems who just seem to want to stare at me, and tell me things that, again, I will forget when I wake up.
And every night seems to be blurring together. I know I should start a dream journal and try it that way, but the problem is, little things set off the recollection days later. You know that "Oh" you get when you are doing something and you remember, months ago, sometimes years, about having a dream of exactly that moment? It is kinda like that sensation, only in images.
I looked up at the stars tonight and remembered that there had been a comet in my dreams. I danced and remembered about the Tiger who wanted to speak with me. And there is another piece of that dream that I am still missing.
Maybe I should just go out in the woods and meditate for days on end. Get it temporarily out of my system.
...No, no, that won't happen. It'll just increase the flow of communication until I am rambling to myself one day, in the middle of no where. I will become a legend among the hikers, and everyone will just assume I took too much LSD until I get eaten by a bear.
:-) Nice to see I still have some sarcastic creativity in me.
No, honestly, I just ended up ranting to Alexis tonight about how much more intense my journeying is getting. And while I don't get my post-travel stoner look- it is a piece of cake to come back and forth- I am blessed with an increase of frequency.
And now Alexis is all "I am setting up a meeting with you and Master Han."
Master Han is the head guy in our area. Appearantly, he is pretty high up on the food chain, even among the Masters. I met him a couple of times, went to a couple of his lectures on Tao. He's nice, and Alexis is CONVINCED that he'll be able to help me out. I worry alot about explaining to the Masters about my guides and my "house cleanings", because I don't think it will translate right, but I am being assured by Alexis that he will be able to help me.
We will see. Part of me is convinced that this is a Pagan matter, and to seek guidance that way, but the other part of me acknowledges that this is also very much a matter of this form of teaching as well.
Why can't I have both? :P
Only so much about eastern energy flow theory and korean you can learn in one night before your eyes cross.
And sleep? Sleep will just bring frustration. The Dream Time is no longer sleepy time. Oh no. Remember how I used to complain that I didn't get a chance to meditate? ...my guides laugh at my calm, saying "We do that later. Now, we are going to go fix something."
I get messages to pass along that I forget the second I wake up. I meet unfamiliar totems who just seem to want to stare at me, and tell me things that, again, I will forget when I wake up.
And every night seems to be blurring together. I know I should start a dream journal and try it that way, but the problem is, little things set off the recollection days later. You know that "Oh" you get when you are doing something and you remember, months ago, sometimes years, about having a dream of exactly that moment? It is kinda like that sensation, only in images.
I looked up at the stars tonight and remembered that there had been a comet in my dreams. I danced and remembered about the Tiger who wanted to speak with me. And there is another piece of that dream that I am still missing.
Maybe I should just go out in the woods and meditate for days on end. Get it temporarily out of my system.
...No, no, that won't happen. It'll just increase the flow of communication until I am rambling to myself one day, in the middle of no where. I will become a legend among the hikers, and everyone will just assume I took too much LSD until I get eaten by a bear.
:-) Nice to see I still have some sarcastic creativity in me.
No, honestly, I just ended up ranting to Alexis tonight about how much more intense my journeying is getting. And while I don't get my post-travel stoner look- it is a piece of cake to come back and forth- I am blessed with an increase of frequency.
And now Alexis is all "I am setting up a meeting with you and Master Han."
Master Han is the head guy in our area. Appearantly, he is pretty high up on the food chain, even among the Masters. I met him a couple of times, went to a couple of his lectures on Tao. He's nice, and Alexis is CONVINCED that he'll be able to help me out. I worry alot about explaining to the Masters about my guides and my "house cleanings", because I don't think it will translate right, but I am being assured by Alexis that he will be able to help me.
We will see. Part of me is convinced that this is a Pagan matter, and to seek guidance that way, but the other part of me acknowledges that this is also very much a matter of this form of teaching as well.
Why can't I have both? :P