sad slashfairy is sad (about some stuff)
i'm still getting good sleep, thanks to the fan and air con.
but i must be making up for all the sleep i haven't had for the last three years, because i've managed to screw up either the dates, or my hours, or something else (thank god nothing about the lad's condition or my care of him) on at least three time sheets/nurses notes in the last two weeks.
which annoys the fuck out of me. that's my record of his condition, of the care i give him, and whether or not that care helps him in anyway. i don't like charting, but i understand why it's important, and i like to think i'm paying attention when i'm doing it.
so. *more attention to charting*.
and then i'm just sad, in general. again, maybe it's catching up with me, i dunno. no europe this summer, no p_s, no downtide, no xchasingtailsx, no ainsoph, no tweedle. . . no denmark, no london, no trying to walk as much as possible without waking people up on the BA flight home. no staying at my son's in san francisco on the way over and the way back. *sigh*. and, i dunno, if i'd done a better job saving, even with the arm injury and everything, could i have pulled it off this year? possibly not. i dunno.
and then i'm pissed off about things, too. i still don't know if the student loan bill will help me lower the $45,000 i owe (most of which is interest, unless i pay something like $1000/mo, which would be tough). i'm not sure health reform's gonna help me so much either: found out today that my weekly (WEEKLY) premiums for my basic healthcare (not vision, not dental) are going from $89.08 to $111.08- so with dental and vision, i'll be having $133 A WEEK taken out of my check- and that's not counting taxes, savings, medicare, social security, state disability. no raise in three years, and the 10% cut two (two? three?) years ago has never been restored. *sigh* how come I'M not an oil company out ruining the environment, or a bank stealing from the community, or a government in bed with multinational corporations? (otoh, no one's directing at me the disgust that's being directed at them, so maybe i'll just drop that complaint. yeah.)
and then, and most important, i'm sad because a lot of people i know and care about are having a hard time right now. medical stuff, housing stuff, family stuff, school stuff, job stuff, personal stuff, pet stuff- there's a lot of icky stuff in people's lives right now (i know there always is, someplace, but i'm aware of it in my friends' lives right now) that just- argh. anyway. my best wishes to all of you.
and now it's time to get off the pity pot, and do this hour's work, and chart it carefully, and Keep Calm and Carry On.
blessings on your heads.
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but i must be making up for all the sleep i haven't had for the last three years, because i've managed to screw up either the dates, or my hours, or something else (thank god nothing about the lad's condition or my care of him) on at least three time sheets/nurses notes in the last two weeks.
which annoys the fuck out of me. that's my record of his condition, of the care i give him, and whether or not that care helps him in anyway. i don't like charting, but i understand why it's important, and i like to think i'm paying attention when i'm doing it.
so. *more attention to charting*.
and then i'm just sad, in general. again, maybe it's catching up with me, i dunno. no europe this summer, no p_s, no downtide, no xchasingtailsx, no ainsoph, no tweedle. . . no denmark, no london, no trying to walk as much as possible without waking people up on the BA flight home. no staying at my son's in san francisco on the way over and the way back. *sigh*. and, i dunno, if i'd done a better job saving, even with the arm injury and everything, could i have pulled it off this year? possibly not. i dunno.
and then i'm pissed off about things, too. i still don't know if the student loan bill will help me lower the $45,000 i owe (most of which is interest, unless i pay something like $1000/mo, which would be tough). i'm not sure health reform's gonna help me so much either: found out today that my weekly (WEEKLY) premiums for my basic healthcare (not vision, not dental) are going from $89.08 to $111.08- so with dental and vision, i'll be having $133 A WEEK taken out of my check- and that's not counting taxes, savings, medicare, social security, state disability. no raise in three years, and the 10% cut two (two? three?) years ago has never been restored. *sigh* how come I'M not an oil company out ruining the environment, or a bank stealing from the community, or a government in bed with multinational corporations? (otoh, no one's directing at me the disgust that's being directed at them, so maybe i'll just drop that complaint. yeah.)
and then, and most important, i'm sad because a lot of people i know and care about are having a hard time right now. medical stuff, housing stuff, family stuff, school stuff, job stuff, personal stuff, pet stuff- there's a lot of icky stuff in people's lives right now (i know there always is, someplace, but i'm aware of it in my friends' lives right now) that just- argh. anyway. my best wishes to all of you.
and now it's time to get off the pity pot, and do this hour's work, and chart it carefully, and Keep Calm and Carry On.
blessings on your heads.
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