Because it's driving me CRAZY not saying anything...
She's my sister. He's just an old friend.
I barely know him. He barely knows me.
He doesn't AT ALL know her...
He'll choose her, if we both make moves on him. I'm certain of it.
Why the fuck does that hurt so badly?
Maybe because it's such a goddamn surety?
Because she's thinner. Prettier. Less brutal or intimidating.
Because he goes for girls like that.
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I barely know him. He barely knows me.
He doesn't AT ALL know her...
He'll choose her, if we both make moves on him. I'm certain of it.
Why the fuck does that hurt so badly?
Maybe because it's such a goddamn surety?
Because she's thinner. Prettier. Less brutal or intimidating.
Because he goes for girls like that.
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I hate feeling insecure, I hate feeling irrational, and I very much hate envying friends of mine, who hold so much of my admiration, simply because others like them better.
But I can't help it, sometimes.
It's a hard slap in the face when you act the same, talk the same, walk the same, feel the same about issues...and are cast aside because of your looks.
Thankfully my sister is sweet enough NOT to go after the guy, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm the 'fat sister' who's had less guys/girls in her entire life than she's had in this year. That she rejects more people than I've even ever been pursued by.
And the guy who I've always been attracted to, who flirts with me mercilessly, with nothing behind it, would suddenly discover some new affection for her...simply because she looks better.
Yeah. The best friend thing is hard, too. Wanna talk terrible? The three boys in my circle of friends I've ever liked have fallen for the same girl! :/
Ha, I wish I had that option. I've always had to 'settle' to get a guy to go out with me. The last one I dated was leaving for the Marines at the end of the year, and would only date me for a couple months at most...and the one before that was one I dreaded kissing.
I guess that's partly why it hits me so hard that my sister, who's so like me, is so much more attractive.
As for 'like' liking me, I wouldn't even be that upset. Not that upset that he wouldn't 'like' ME...just as long as he didn't like her either. That would make me feel a lot better.
...As you have. Misery loves company and all that.
*hugs tight*
For the record, I bet you're fucking amazing. And they're buttfaces for not knowing this. ♥
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