What immortal hand or eye/dare frame thy fearful symmetry?
I have no idea.
I suspect my body is adjusting to five hours of sleep daily, because I don't feel extremely tired; it's just the normal fatigue that insists on sticking to us like a bad smell. I will sleep more tomorrow though, I swear, since nothing is actually due on Thursday so I will just spend Wednesday on Chemistry and Chinese, and rest well. Thursday, of course, will be the tragically busy day because I have a backlog of French homework to clear, plus my French 'assignments', which I shall not elaborate on, and Friday shall arrive as a benediction. I am skipping WSC this Saturday, because firstly, WSC math makes me feel demoralizingly stupid, and Fine Arts is so irrelevant; hence, the time will be better spent sleeping resting (:
Today wasn't a bad day per se. My defense mechanism for lack of sleep kicked in, so I spent my first couple of blocks in a pretty high daze. Lit was mostly spent annotating Blake's The Tyger, talking to Wei Qing, sprouting intelligent-sounding rubbish at Kamsir and of course, laughing at Kar Min's secret dom tendencies. ALSO, MS. KAMSIR SAID THIS TO ME: "Johnny Depp's quite dishy, right." And I'm all, "OMG OMG WHAT?!" And apparently 'dishy' means 'yummy/delicious', and 1) Kamsir actually said that of Depp to me! and 2) who actually uses the word 'dishy' nowadays?! Except apparently everyone else knew what it meant except me. What can I say, I'm too cool for words (:
I spoke to the two (as in, Wei Qing and Kar Min, not Kamsir and Depp -.-") about the GEP (LIT) production and - I was honestly surprised by their negative reactions. Wei Qing just felt that it was way too early to be planning this, and she told me that normal people only start planning it during Options, while Kar Min first mentioned the GEP thing, and then she got flustered and fumbled for words for long moments before settling on, "I'm just too lazy to do it, okay?" We discussed this down the stairs to PE, and I did tell them about the whole batch+class distinction, and I must have seemed pretty upset, in retrospect, because moments later, in the corner of the tennis courts, she told me that, "I wouldn't just take part in it for anyone, but if someone really close to me asked me to, then I will." Then she paused. "So if you asked me to do it, I would." That, that means more than I can say. It meant something, hearing her say that.
Today I told Mr. Law that WWI rescued America's economy from the Great Depression, when the Great Depression occurred in the 1930s -.-" I wrote a poem in class because we were asked to; I quite like it.
On rolling plains golden with wheat,
the sun sets; the sky
closes on a blanket of discarded grain
cushioning the sedate steps of weary men,
returning to where their family
waits, hearts heavy, quiet with the comfort of
having fed their loved ones for another day.
At night, these men dream freely of ancient stories
their grandfathers once told them: of fatuous kings and
natural disasters, warring states and the mandate of heaven
safe in the security of Mao's China,
safe in Mao's heart.
CCA wasn't as bad as I anticipated; the script analysis dragged a little, I'm afraid, but the rousing game of Twin Towers played soon woke everyone up. It is hilarious watching my CCA play Twin Towers in a confined space, because everyone starts screaming as they run, and the progression of screams is just amusing. I do love my CCA, you know, whatever I may say about it sometimes. I think I just don't like myself sometimes during CCA, because I get all uptight and tired and impersonal, when I'm really not like that at all! The thing I like most about English Drama after the people is that it is such a cool CCA! Which CCA actually lets you wear pants with casual CCA shirts twice a week, and walk around school? Which CCA lets you play games and do 'explorations' and let your hair down (literally and figuratively) during sessions? Lets you be practically illegal when you come to school, but under an official pretext? I just worry so much about all that I may theoretically be doing wrong for it, because as a Sec 4, what you do affects all your future batches D:
I am actually quite proud of my History FA, because it's painstakingly handwritten in an hour fifteen minutes, and I mostly handwrote it for Law, which is a frivolous reason, yes, but it makes me happy, so (: The focus is very biased though, as I realized after reading Wei Qing's and Kar Min's, so I will see how well I score. Now I just need to do my SS FA in the same way, even though it's probably unnecessary, but I'd really like to do another one in case my previous one was a massive failure according to the rubrics.
I am slightly conflicted, yeah? Mostly about relationships, because they are so complicated! I never want to date because even now, in a girls' school, when things are supposed to be simple and all that, they're not!
Oh I forgot to add! I was fairly pissed after ELDS today because Ms Chen brought up a Concern regarding the trip to watch The Importance of Being Earnest, by Oscar Wilde. There is apparently an issue with the treatment of homosexuality in the play (which is quite natural, since this is Oscar Wilde we're talking about), and Ms Chen said that since it was awkward to send parents' letters to 'warn' them about the gay themes, it will just be an unofficial thing, meaning also that transport won't be provided, which pissed me off because - it's a play. Drama is supposed to boast a tradition of liberal mindsets, but here we are just conceding defeat to the establishment. It's really about the principle of the matter; if parents choose to withdraw their kids, that's their problem, but we shouldn't be pandering to their perceived opinions and just backing down from our beliefs! I guess in a sense it rankles, because I feel for the gay pride movement, but when I actually have a chance to do something, especially since I'm in a relative position of authority, I cannot help but capitulate to the Conservative Authority.
Damn.
I suspect my body is adjusting to five hours of sleep daily, because I don't feel extremely tired; it's just the normal fatigue that insists on sticking to us like a bad smell. I will sleep more tomorrow though, I swear, since nothing is actually due on Thursday so I will just spend Wednesday on Chemistry and Chinese, and rest well. Thursday, of course, will be the tragically busy day because I have a backlog of French homework to clear, plus my French 'assignments', which I shall not elaborate on, and Friday shall arrive as a benediction. I am skipping WSC this Saturday, because firstly, WSC math makes me feel demoralizingly stupid, and Fine Arts is so irrelevant; hence, the time will be better spent sleeping resting (:
Today wasn't a bad day per se. My defense mechanism for lack of sleep kicked in, so I spent my first couple of blocks in a pretty high daze. Lit was mostly spent annotating Blake's The Tyger, talking to Wei Qing, sprouting intelligent-sounding rubbish at Kamsir and of course, laughing at Kar Min's secret dom tendencies. ALSO, MS. KAMSIR SAID THIS TO ME: "Johnny Depp's quite dishy, right." And I'm all, "OMG OMG WHAT?!" And apparently 'dishy' means 'yummy/delicious', and 1) Kamsir actually said that of Depp to me! and 2) who actually uses the word 'dishy' nowadays?! Except apparently everyone else knew what it meant except me. What can I say, I'm too cool for words (:
I spoke to the two (as in, Wei Qing and Kar Min, not Kamsir and Depp -.-") about the GEP (LIT) production and - I was honestly surprised by their negative reactions. Wei Qing just felt that it was way too early to be planning this, and she told me that normal people only start planning it during Options, while Kar Min first mentioned the GEP thing, and then she got flustered and fumbled for words for long moments before settling on, "I'm just too lazy to do it, okay?" We discussed this down the stairs to PE, and I did tell them about the whole batch+class distinction, and I must have seemed pretty upset, in retrospect, because moments later, in the corner of the tennis courts, she told me that, "I wouldn't just take part in it for anyone, but if someone really close to me asked me to, then I will." Then she paused. "So if you asked me to do it, I would." That, that means more than I can say. It meant something, hearing her say that.
Today I told Mr. Law that WWI rescued America's economy from the Great Depression, when the Great Depression occurred in the 1930s -.-" I wrote a poem in class because we were asked to; I quite like it.
On rolling plains golden with wheat,
the sun sets; the sky
closes on a blanket of discarded grain
cushioning the sedate steps of weary men,
returning to where their family
waits, hearts heavy, quiet with the comfort of
having fed their loved ones for another day.
At night, these men dream freely of ancient stories
their grandfathers once told them: of fatuous kings and
natural disasters, warring states and the mandate of heaven
safe in the security of Mao's China,
safe in Mao's heart.
CCA wasn't as bad as I anticipated; the script analysis dragged a little, I'm afraid, but the rousing game of Twin Towers played soon woke everyone up. It is hilarious watching my CCA play Twin Towers in a confined space, because everyone starts screaming as they run, and the progression of screams is just amusing. I do love my CCA, you know, whatever I may say about it sometimes. I think I just don't like myself sometimes during CCA, because I get all uptight and tired and impersonal, when I'm really not like that at all! The thing I like most about English Drama after the people is that it is such a cool CCA! Which CCA actually lets you wear pants with casual CCA shirts twice a week, and walk around school? Which CCA lets you play games and do 'explorations' and let your hair down (literally and figuratively) during sessions? Lets you be practically illegal when you come to school, but under an official pretext? I just worry so much about all that I may theoretically be doing wrong for it, because as a Sec 4, what you do affects all your future batches D:
I am actually quite proud of my History FA, because it's painstakingly handwritten in an hour fifteen minutes, and I mostly handwrote it for Law, which is a frivolous reason, yes, but it makes me happy, so (: The focus is very biased though, as I realized after reading Wei Qing's and Kar Min's, so I will see how well I score. Now I just need to do my SS FA in the same way, even though it's probably unnecessary, but I'd really like to do another one in case my previous one was a massive failure according to the rubrics.
I am slightly conflicted, yeah? Mostly about relationships, because they are so complicated! I never want to date because even now, in a girls' school, when things are supposed to be simple and all that, they're not!
Oh I forgot to add! I was fairly pissed after ELDS today because Ms Chen brought up a Concern regarding the trip to watch The Importance of Being Earnest, by Oscar Wilde. There is apparently an issue with the treatment of homosexuality in the play (which is quite natural, since this is Oscar Wilde we're talking about), and Ms Chen said that since it was awkward to send parents' letters to 'warn' them about the gay themes, it will just be an unofficial thing, meaning also that transport won't be provided, which pissed me off because - it's a play. Drama is supposed to boast a tradition of liberal mindsets, but here we are just conceding defeat to the establishment. It's really about the principle of the matter; if parents choose to withdraw their kids, that's their problem, but we shouldn't be pandering to their perceived opinions and just backing down from our beliefs! I guess in a sense it rankles, because I feel for the gay pride movement, but when I actually have a chance to do something, especially since I'm in a relative position of authority, I cannot help but capitulate to the Conservative Authority.
Damn.