May 30, 2007 14:08
I still have that dragging feeling.
Its starting to really take a toll on me.
My movie is ending...still.
I want to rewind
and push play al over again.
Everything seems to jsut get more confusing.
People move in and out of other people's lives
like leaves on a windy day.
They leave their mark and their point then they leave altogether.
Its then,
when they walk out that they seem to tear you apart.
But in a week you're over it.
I can't stand this motion anymore.
This running in and out.
Friends are great.
They are everything.
But I want family.
I mean,
I obviously have family...
but they could all care less.
My life is slowly running in the wrong directions.
but I just keep pushing forward anyways.
I'm messing myself all up.
Theres nothing left to help
or fix it.
My mind is a huge pile of random thoughts.
My sentences are all in jumbles.
I can't think straight.
I need some fucking stability
and some god damn room.
Is that too much to ask?