Gratitudes, running and jobs!
My local minister held a brief meditation course, and there's a great quote she used:
"You can't keep the birds from flying, but you can keep them from building a nest."
You know, between putting a load of energy into maintaining a positive mindset, learning more and more about the power of positive prayer and the law of attraction and living with Pat (who is pretty much akin to a Buddha when it comes to positive thinking), I'm SOOO fortunate to be saturated in such powerful energy.
The way things are progressing is nothing short of amazing, and I'm finding more and more reasons to be grateful to be going through this experience and life in general :)
A few days ago my mind was flying all over the place, so much that I actually became physically ill and couldn't keep anything down. Every now and then it's just too much, and sickness and crying happen.
After I picked myself up and stopped pleading in prayer, I found a notebook and starting writing gratitudes. Instead of just writing "Thank You" on the top and making a list, I wrote each time "Thank You God" and then did the specifics for each.
Thinking about everything I'm fortunate to have (without letting thoughts of lack and limitation dwell and spread) brought me inner peace, though slow at first. And next thing I knew, I had over three pages of gratitudes written out :)
Yesterday started rough again with stomach issues, but after I chilled out for a while and gathered myself, I was eventually able to get myself to dress into my workout clothes. Then, I told myself just to stretch out. I wanted dearly to do a full 4-mile run (following my training program), but told myself just to do the best I can, and if I need to do one mile, two miles, whatever, then so be it.
After stretching, I got out on the road and ran to Peg's house, which is a mile from our house. Then, I doubled back and ran through some subdivisions and felt I could keep going.
4 miles later, I came back to my starting point! I give myself landmarks ("make it to that sign, just run to this next street, go for another minute", etc) and for the last hundred yards or so, I always pick up my pace. For the last ten to twenty yards, I finish in a HARD sprint.
It's that last bit that makes the run go from rewarding to amazing!
My iPod's on it's last legs (3 years of solid, great service to me XD), so I run without headphones, which is probably an immense blessing. It's safer that way, and it enables me to take in my surroundings better. Plus, my mind's free to focus on more gratitudes, which make the runs immensely more bearable :)
I tell ya, it's the *first* twenty minutes that are the hardest. Getting through that is BIG, and always, when I get to the half-way point, I feel great.
When I got back to the house, Pat had come home from work and was hanging out, ready to watch the Giants take on the Redskins :) I asked her about her day, chatted for a bit and told her how crappy I was feeling that day but still made it out there and knocked out a solid run.
She told me she's proud of me, and that makes me feel like a million bucks :) :) :)
I was elated, felt all my right and true energy rush back to me (gotta love endorphins!) and was ready to get to church for Thursday night class. Perfect timing - we're learning about positive prayer!
After I got home, we watched the rest of the game and hung out. I'm so lucky to spend time - and live with! - my best friend, and some of my best moments here are when I just sit and listen to her talk. She's got such a bright light and her energy is contagious. There's no one in the world who doesn't love being around her, and she's a shining example of letting that light shine through ALL, no matter how hard things can get or how much is on one's plate.
It's not the problems that define us, it's maintaining our inner strength and courage that make us who we are. I've had some rough times, but I'm learning more and more every day that I Am capable of getting through this, of living prosperously NOW, and of maintaining the truth that I am NOT my thoughts, but rather the peace and awareness behind them.
I go to sleep giving gratitudes, and I wake up giving gratitudes.
It all adds up...
... I've got a job interview on Tuesday at the university:)
It's going to ROCK to be back in a college setting, and I've got a lot of love for my alma mater :) I've been praying for something to get me through the next few months, as I'll officially become a resident in May and will get a Florida resident's tuition rate, which means in the fall (or possibly as early as summer), I can attend culinary school :) :) :)
After a year working at the university, I can also take free classes! It'll be cool to take classes again, but this time for shits and giggles :P
Once I do the interview and land the job (!! XD !!), hopefully I'll have consistent Internet and will be able to catch up with you all! Miss talking to you and I look forward to hearing about what's up in your lives and sharing in the love ♥
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Sending lots of love and support to mental_thatone and remuswulf, and hope you guys have somewhere safe to run to if you need to evacuate!
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Sending good energy to you all, and wish me luck getting this job! I'd be working at the university, which means WOOOO gym access! I can work out before going into the office!
"You can't keep the birds from flying, but you can keep them from building a nest."
You know, between putting a load of energy into maintaining a positive mindset, learning more and more about the power of positive prayer and the law of attraction and living with Pat (who is pretty much akin to a Buddha when it comes to positive thinking), I'm SOOO fortunate to be saturated in such powerful energy.
The way things are progressing is nothing short of amazing, and I'm finding more and more reasons to be grateful to be going through this experience and life in general :)
A few days ago my mind was flying all over the place, so much that I actually became physically ill and couldn't keep anything down. Every now and then it's just too much, and sickness and crying happen.
After I picked myself up and stopped pleading in prayer, I found a notebook and starting writing gratitudes. Instead of just writing "Thank You" on the top and making a list, I wrote each time "Thank You God" and then did the specifics for each.
Thinking about everything I'm fortunate to have (without letting thoughts of lack and limitation dwell and spread) brought me inner peace, though slow at first. And next thing I knew, I had over three pages of gratitudes written out :)
Yesterday started rough again with stomach issues, but after I chilled out for a while and gathered myself, I was eventually able to get myself to dress into my workout clothes. Then, I told myself just to stretch out. I wanted dearly to do a full 4-mile run (following my training program), but told myself just to do the best I can, and if I need to do one mile, two miles, whatever, then so be it.
After stretching, I got out on the road and ran to Peg's house, which is a mile from our house. Then, I doubled back and ran through some subdivisions and felt I could keep going.
4 miles later, I came back to my starting point! I give myself landmarks ("make it to that sign, just run to this next street, go for another minute", etc) and for the last hundred yards or so, I always pick up my pace. For the last ten to twenty yards, I finish in a HARD sprint.
It's that last bit that makes the run go from rewarding to amazing!
My iPod's on it's last legs (3 years of solid, great service to me XD), so I run without headphones, which is probably an immense blessing. It's safer that way, and it enables me to take in my surroundings better. Plus, my mind's free to focus on more gratitudes, which make the runs immensely more bearable :)
I tell ya, it's the *first* twenty minutes that are the hardest. Getting through that is BIG, and always, when I get to the half-way point, I feel great.
When I got back to the house, Pat had come home from work and was hanging out, ready to watch the Giants take on the Redskins :) I asked her about her day, chatted for a bit and told her how crappy I was feeling that day but still made it out there and knocked out a solid run.
She told me she's proud of me, and that makes me feel like a million bucks :) :) :)
I was elated, felt all my right and true energy rush back to me (gotta love endorphins!) and was ready to get to church for Thursday night class. Perfect timing - we're learning about positive prayer!
After I got home, we watched the rest of the game and hung out. I'm so lucky to spend time - and live with! - my best friend, and some of my best moments here are when I just sit and listen to her talk. She's got such a bright light and her energy is contagious. There's no one in the world who doesn't love being around her, and she's a shining example of letting that light shine through ALL, no matter how hard things can get or how much is on one's plate.
It's not the problems that define us, it's maintaining our inner strength and courage that make us who we are. I've had some rough times, but I'm learning more and more every day that I Am capable of getting through this, of living prosperously NOW, and of maintaining the truth that I am NOT my thoughts, but rather the peace and awareness behind them.
I go to sleep giving gratitudes, and I wake up giving gratitudes.
It all adds up...
... I've got a job interview on Tuesday at the university:)
It's going to ROCK to be back in a college setting, and I've got a lot of love for my alma mater :) I've been praying for something to get me through the next few months, as I'll officially become a resident in May and will get a Florida resident's tuition rate, which means in the fall (or possibly as early as summer), I can attend culinary school :) :) :)
After a year working at the university, I can also take free classes! It'll be cool to take classes again, but this time for shits and giggles :P
Once I do the interview and land the job (!! XD !!), hopefully I'll have consistent Internet and will be able to catch up with you all! Miss talking to you and I look forward to hearing about what's up in your lives and sharing in the love ♥
* * * *
Sending lots of love and support to mental_thatone and remuswulf, and hope you guys have somewhere safe to run to if you need to evacuate!
* * *
Sending good energy to you all, and wish me luck getting this job! I'd be working at the university, which means WOOOO gym access! I can work out before going into the office!