struggle, I ...

[slap_my_ass]

grey because I'm blue
ah, It's nothing new
and that's the worst part
this
again
WOW
hi there, been here
before
over
and over
again
and again
I come back
dragged back
pulled down
way down
beneath the salt and the sad
down here
in this black solo spot
only just always me and this and
it hurts
i could kill this
easy enough
but it's too hard
to end it
and just
give up
cure heal help change
i'm doomed
to exist within this haze
ups and downs
and back again
down
down
down
down 
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So  I write because I need to bleed