I don't think you even want to see inside yourself
School was a bitch, just because everyone was trying to purposely hurt me and purposely piss me off. I cried during the beginning of fourth block and I'm basically mad at everyone that sits at my lunch table. And there's no where else for me to sit during lunch. So I'll probably end up reading at my locker or hanging out in the bathroom or something. I wanted to kill them all though. I got farther behind in my Algebra class because my teacher refuses to teach me unless I stay after school and I am NOT staying after school for that prick I'm sorry but I am not doing that. If he won't teach me during CHANNEL 1 then it's his shitty teaching then. I went over to Justin's after school and was really tired even though I slept the entire last block of school. I wasn't in the best "mood" either because every single one of my friends with the exception of like five people weren't ragging on me over him and me. I'm sick of people being assholes they all should get the shit beat out of them. If I was still friends with John I'd ask him to beat the shit out of Adam since I think I remember him wanting to all the time anyway. We just watched tv the entire time. On the way home I felt bad because he wasn't in the happiest of moods either and I delved into his world briefly as he told me some things. Our childhoods don't really have that many differences. I came home and ate and I smoked too much for my room, my poor room. It's lost it's smoke virginity. I never let anyone smoke in here, yet I wake up in the middle of the night and smoke and then will smoke whenever it tickles my fancy. It's so sad. I talked to Justin about some other things, and he's the only guy that I actually believe when they say they're not going to use me and that they just want to love me and what not. Then I was just chatting with Scott and asking him how things were going and he just blurts out that he wants to see my boobs I'm like "Oh yeah that's great, no." I swear the nerve of some people. And then I've just been randomly popping in and out of my room all night. I'm going to a party on Saturday with Justin and Jimmy, but I still have to go to the banquet. I'm not going to the talent show tomorrow at Powers if I have to pay Conley's friend for gas money. Justin gave Kat some money today for two packs and he's going to give me one pack. I'm ecstatic over that. That's sad when I think buying me cigs is sweet. Hehe.
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