I can never give you anything you need!! I'm sick of wasting time on what can never be!!
I hate life. Whenever I actually HAVE a fucking GOOD day, I come home and things are shit INSTANTLY. I went and had a good time with Anjie and Amanda, and school was alright for once. EVEN WOLFF'S CLASS WAS OK! So ya know, I'm hoping that it'll end good for once and I'm all excited and happy and can't wait for tomorrow until I get online. I notice no one is online so I look at journals and read Warren's. Yeah... made ME want to fucking kill MYSELF. I was close to going and doing it too. I was so upset, I was crying and not happy. I felt like I was being guilt tripped today by him when I read that and when I was talking to him. I just wanted to go cut my entire hand off. I can't stand breathing right now. I'm seriously pissed that I keep doing it. My head is killing me, I've decided Im' gonna go take a shower in like ten minutes and get out and OD on codeine. Not die, just OD. Cause this is bull shit. I should be having a GOOD day. No. One person ruined that. Then another one, named Mom did. She thinks she's the queen. Well I'm through with monachy, off with her head!
Fucking pissed me off, I'm not sure I have feelings for anyone anymore after tonight. Fucking close myself off to the world and sleep life away a fucking gain. I'm gonna do it. I'm going to turn my computer on, do homework, and sleep the day away. I won't even go to Adam's house anymore. I know these are probably hollow statements because I probably will still go to his house, or anyone else's house. I can't take being home anymore, every time I come home I die inside, nothing makes my day better unless... new idea. Instead of just sleeping, I'm going to drug myself to go to sleep. Cause I can't sleep well at night, so how about sleeping great for days. Anyways, coming home is shitty, my dad bitches at me about everything and calls me lousy and shit and my mom comes home at 10 every night drunk off her ass and expects me to do everything myself and take care of myself and not do anything but sit here all day. They make my life shit always. I'm going now. Warren just tried to call. Yip-ee... *no enthusiasm*. I don't think he's going to call back, because he heard my voice and how unhappy it was when I was telling my mom who it was. I heard the click. Fuck off my LJ!
Lets compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Heath
Fucking pissed me off, I'm not sure I have feelings for anyone anymore after tonight. Fucking close myself off to the world and sleep life away a fucking gain. I'm gonna do it. I'm going to turn my computer on, do homework, and sleep the day away. I won't even go to Adam's house anymore. I know these are probably hollow statements because I probably will still go to his house, or anyone else's house. I can't take being home anymore, every time I come home I die inside, nothing makes my day better unless... new idea. Instead of just sleeping, I'm going to drug myself to go to sleep. Cause I can't sleep well at night, so how about sleeping great for days. Anyways, coming home is shitty, my dad bitches at me about everything and calls me lousy and shit and my mom comes home at 10 every night drunk off her ass and expects me to do everything myself and take care of myself and not do anything but sit here all day. They make my life shit always. I'm going now. Warren just tried to call. Yip-ee... *no enthusiasm*. I don't think he's going to call back, because he heard my voice and how unhappy it was when I was telling my mom who it was. I heard the click. Fuck off my LJ!
Lets compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
Heath