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[slantedcursive]

I'm really very afraid of death.

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[technocratic]

What makes you think of it?

[slantedcursive]

I think it's just when I get in one of my moods, and I remember that we're all going to die and that's it and ~nothing happens~ and we just stop existing and it's very panic attack-inducing. I'm constantly looking for reassurance that there is something after death, but obviously there is very little information available about the subject. It's times like that where I really do wish I was religious in some manner :(

(I am no longer in danger of panic attacks about death rn but still, it is a scary thing if you think about it for too long!)

[technocratic]

I wish there were some way I could reassure you, but obviously I can't. I can say, however, that thinking about death is different for me. It's almost a comforting thing, knowing that someday I will be freed of my pain, anxiety, regret, fear, envy, lust, and obligation. I'll drift off into a dreamless sleep and be at peace.

But my other thought is that those of our generation will live to be very old -- far older than the oldest people living today. Soon we'll be able to create replacement organs for those that have worn out and repair genes that are causing problems. I fully anticipate being in better health at 80 than I was at 20. This is a pretty cool time to be alive. :)

[slantedcursive]

I really like both of these thoughts. Jim, I think you have a secret optimist inside you :o