Really?
I've come to realize what I want most in a relationship. There are three small words that are integral for me to function as a human being and I realize now that's what Danny's and my relationship lacked. I think that's one of the reasons why I've been so mellow about this whole break-up this time. One of the things Jill said to me last year when Danny and I were getting back together was "When it's over you'll know it's over." I say that to myself everyday. I still don't know if it's over but just the fact that I wasn't worth staying to him is enough for me to say that I'm done for now.
I digress. I heard someone say those three words to me today. Even though those words weren't really for me, or in the right context they legitimately almost brought me to tears and if I had not been at work they probably would have made me start crying hysterically.
Me: Why are you in a relationship if you're not even having sex?
Dan G.: You know? I really don't know.
...at this point I walk away to do something, a few moments later Dan runs back up to me.
Dan: No. You know why? It's because she's worth it.
Me: That's really amazing Dan. You should hold onto that. That's all a girl really wants to hear.
Dan: What exactly/
Me: That they're worth it. They want to know that through all the bullshit and heartache that you want to work through it. That they're worth all that pain. It's all I've ever wanted. I guess I was never really worth it.
Dan: I thought you were worth it.
Maybe one day I'll mean that much to someone for real.
I digress. I heard someone say those three words to me today. Even though those words weren't really for me, or in the right context they legitimately almost brought me to tears and if I had not been at work they probably would have made me start crying hysterically.
Me: Why are you in a relationship if you're not even having sex?
Dan G.: You know? I really don't know.
...at this point I walk away to do something, a few moments later Dan runs back up to me.
Dan: No. You know why? It's because she's worth it.
Me: That's really amazing Dan. You should hold onto that. That's all a girl really wants to hear.
Dan: What exactly/
Me: That they're worth it. They want to know that through all the bullshit and heartache that you want to work through it. That they're worth all that pain. It's all I've ever wanted. I guess I was never really worth it.
Dan: I thought you were worth it.
Maybe one day I'll mean that much to someone for real.