I am no one's slave anymore.
I had a creepy dream a few nights ago... Will (my SUPER-ex) was telling me what to do and generally implying that I was still his to tell what to do and control... well I woke up in a cold sweat and was unsettled for the rest of the day... ANYWAYS... guess who called me today telling me what to do for him: Will. He kept calling me 'Baby' and saying that I broke his heart for deleting a whole bunch of pictures he took in Europe from my computer (I was hard-drive cleaning) I couldn't bring myself to say anything along the lines of "and you kicking me out of our home didn't break mine? You doing a shit load of drugs with the money I saved for you didnt break mine?" He eventually said "Fuck You" and hung up on me... only minutes before calling me back to appologize and ask for an explanation.
Deep down inside I knew my explanation: I am no longer his to control and tell what to do. But I couldn't tell him that for fear of pissing him off more. He has his memories, which is a lot more than some people can say... that is unless he fried his brain with druggie nastiness so much he can't remember it.
That's his problem. Not mine.
I am my own person now, not anyone else's.
And it's only after becoming my own person that I've realized that I can be with someone entirely...
Deep down inside I knew my explanation: I am no longer his to control and tell what to do. But I couldn't tell him that for fear of pissing him off more. He has his memories, which is a lot more than some people can say... that is unless he fried his brain with druggie nastiness so much he can't remember it.
That's his problem. Not mine.
I am my own person now, not anyone else's.
And it's only after becoming my own person that I've realized that I can be with someone entirely...