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i am really not caught up with your guys' and all my friends' lives. im sorry. catch me up. i have been in my own world and continue to be and will probably be until school end. its absolutely insane right now. but i care about all of you a lot....
im sorry but im gonna vent. thats what this is for anyhow...
im really struggling with trying to figure out what i want to do with my life and ya ya everyone else is going through it and all that...but it still sucks...and everyones different..im so lost
i dont want to to things for the "wrong" or "right" reasons, i just want to do things because i WANT to do them...but i honestly dont know what it is that i want out of my life right now. its really frusterating.
im not taking care of myself in any respect. mentally, physically, emotionally, any other way. just not happening. and it needs to be because i'm going to just break down into a million pieces which is already beginning to happen..
i dont know how to handle everything thats constantly on my mind and then all the things that randomly pop up or suddenly become urgent memories i have to attend to...i just cant handle it sometimes. i dont know what to brush off as stupid and what to really worry about. i cant prioritize for shit and i dont seem to know much about anything at times.
a lot of the same stuff happening over and over again. i cant break all these viscious cycles that continue to speed around without ever slowing down.
"stop this train. i want to get off and go home again. i cant take the speed its moving in. i know i cant, but honestly wont someone stop this train?"
im sorry but im gonna vent. thats what this is for anyhow...
im really struggling with trying to figure out what i want to do with my life and ya ya everyone else is going through it and all that...but it still sucks...and everyones different..im so lost
i dont want to to things for the "wrong" or "right" reasons, i just want to do things because i WANT to do them...but i honestly dont know what it is that i want out of my life right now. its really frusterating.
im not taking care of myself in any respect. mentally, physically, emotionally, any other way. just not happening. and it needs to be because i'm going to just break down into a million pieces which is already beginning to happen..
i dont know how to handle everything thats constantly on my mind and then all the things that randomly pop up or suddenly become urgent memories i have to attend to...i just cant handle it sometimes. i dont know what to brush off as stupid and what to really worry about. i cant prioritize for shit and i dont seem to know much about anything at times.
a lot of the same stuff happening over and over again. i cant break all these viscious cycles that continue to speed around without ever slowing down.
"stop this train. i want to get off and go home again. i cant take the speed its moving in. i know i cant, but honestly wont someone stop this train?"