California Rest in peace
my life is pretty krazy rite now. Tomorrow I fly on a private jet to Key West for a photoshoot pretty sweet huh
I had to deal with some "drama".. ugh.. I love how everything can be so fucking perfect yet at the same time be fucked up. Maybe I'am too nice? nah I think its more then that.. I just hate confrontation, I just hate hurting people. I really do. Espically people I love. Xander has been a bit out of control, its so hard to sit back and watch someone always dangling on the edge of the rope, when all you wanna do its pull them away from the edge and make them safe, and be what they need. However it doesnt always work that way. God knows I've learned that lesson in the past. The South beach life so far, has been nuts. I'm still in and out of broward alot, ha its so funny going there, I wonder how the fuck I ever lasted there before, yea people say its nice its quite, bullshit. Its boring there, lackluster, dull. I need more. If I'm gonna be on this earth for how ever long, I may as well get out there and experince it all. And I dont even think South beach has truly savored my taste but still its better then broward. California here I come?
Its crazy.
I've been meeting alot of people, its cool, I love striking up conversations with random people its amazing what you learn. I'm gonna host at pawn shop on thursdays again I think? If thats the case it would be shweeet (as david and augusto would say) speaking of . I miss them and home just a bit but you know sometimes you gotta work through those emotions even if at times it gets the best of you. I just realized today how I'm only around guys.. I'm such a boy.. I think I forgot how to be a girl. Well I'm a gay boy at least lol
and as for my lover. I want to see him
he makes my tummy feel all fluttery inside
I just want to make love
-love-
I had to deal with some "drama".. ugh.. I love how everything can be so fucking perfect yet at the same time be fucked up. Maybe I'am too nice? nah I think its more then that.. I just hate confrontation, I just hate hurting people. I really do. Espically people I love. Xander has been a bit out of control, its so hard to sit back and watch someone always dangling on the edge of the rope, when all you wanna do its pull them away from the edge and make them safe, and be what they need. However it doesnt always work that way. God knows I've learned that lesson in the past. The South beach life so far, has been nuts. I'm still in and out of broward alot, ha its so funny going there, I wonder how the fuck I ever lasted there before, yea people say its nice its quite, bullshit. Its boring there, lackluster, dull. I need more. If I'm gonna be on this earth for how ever long, I may as well get out there and experince it all. And I dont even think South beach has truly savored my taste but still its better then broward. California here I come?
Its crazy.
I've been meeting alot of people, its cool, I love striking up conversations with random people its amazing what you learn. I'm gonna host at pawn shop on thursdays again I think? If thats the case it would be shweeet (as david and augusto would say) speaking of . I miss them and home just a bit but you know sometimes you gotta work through those emotions even if at times it gets the best of you. I just realized today how I'm only around guys.. I'm such a boy.. I think I forgot how to be a girl. Well I'm a gay boy at least lol
and as for my lover. I want to see him
he makes my tummy feel all fluttery inside
I just want to make love
-love-