Another Rainy Day
I have been dealing with an awful lot of rain. It's supposed to rain fairly heavily all day. I've got a community resource center to be at until 1 PM and then I am limited to just a small handful of spots to stay out of the rain, basically just awnings to huddle under.
Yesterday was the first day I didn't have anything to drink. I had pretty good luck for the previous week on acquiring alcohol funds and have been on a bit of a, not quite a bender, but a spree, not sure if that's mincing words.
Homelessness is getting me down in some ways, but I still feel I am no more or less happy than I ever am, generally speaking. I have been trying to think fairly hard about what I actually want to do. Is homeless advocacy and activism just of current interest due to my circumstances or is that something I want to make a larger commitment to? I have expressed interest in running for the board of an established non-profit and before I take that step I want to make sure that I am fully on board.
Yesterday was so boring. I had no way to access the Internet. Normally the wifi at the resource center is available, but the router had been unplugged all weekend for whatever reason. Offline anyway. I did finish reading A Day In the Life of Ivan Denisovich by Alexander Solzhenitsyn. That's a cheery book. Makes me feel I don't have it so bad. I'm about halfway through Double Whammy by Carl Hiaasen. Good book, fun, recommended, but I've read it before and it's not exactly full of deep themes which beg to be reconsidered repeatedly. I'll try to find another book for today. At least I am getting back into the habit of sitting and reading for more than five minutes a stretch.
It's still pretty early for me today. Normally I wouldn't try to write at this hour. I'm not feeling especially inspired and I don't feel this is a memorable entry, but it feels like important maintenance or filler. "Important" LOL.
As far as my crazy philosophy, I don't have a torch to carry there, but it is something that is hard to get away from. All-consuming. I did want to at least mention it again. It's not forgotten and it's not ancient history, but it's also not the least bit practical.
Yesterday was the first day I didn't have anything to drink. I had pretty good luck for the previous week on acquiring alcohol funds and have been on a bit of a, not quite a bender, but a spree, not sure if that's mincing words.
Homelessness is getting me down in some ways, but I still feel I am no more or less happy than I ever am, generally speaking. I have been trying to think fairly hard about what I actually want to do. Is homeless advocacy and activism just of current interest due to my circumstances or is that something I want to make a larger commitment to? I have expressed interest in running for the board of an established non-profit and before I take that step I want to make sure that I am fully on board.
Yesterday was so boring. I had no way to access the Internet. Normally the wifi at the resource center is available, but the router had been unplugged all weekend for whatever reason. Offline anyway. I did finish reading A Day In the Life of Ivan Denisovich by Alexander Solzhenitsyn. That's a cheery book. Makes me feel I don't have it so bad. I'm about halfway through Double Whammy by Carl Hiaasen. Good book, fun, recommended, but I've read it before and it's not exactly full of deep themes which beg to be reconsidered repeatedly. I'll try to find another book for today. At least I am getting back into the habit of sitting and reading for more than five minutes a stretch.
It's still pretty early for me today. Normally I wouldn't try to write at this hour. I'm not feeling especially inspired and I don't feel this is a memorable entry, but it feels like important maintenance or filler. "Important" LOL.
As far as my crazy philosophy, I don't have a torch to carry there, but it is something that is hard to get away from. All-consuming. I did want to at least mention it again. It's not forgotten and it's not ancient history, but it's also not the least bit practical.