Madness? Certainly. Divine? Who Can Say?
I am deeply influenced by ideas of divine madness as found in crazy wisdom manifestations in many diverse traditions. I feel this as a strong influence in my life right now and I am aware that I am not functioning on an especially rational level. I just don't know what to think about myself, my life, my circumstances, my possibilities or any resulting goals. That's not to say I don't think of these things, just that my thoughts are fragmented and incoherent when taken as a whole. I'd like to think I am generally coherent in regard to any one factor, but the big picture has never been less clear.
I actively resist the call to any sort of ministry or spiritual/philosophical outreach or "mission" for lack of a better word, but I find this sets me at odds against myself. It seems I don't get that much choice in who I am or what I will do. It only appears that I have choices and whenever I stray I face a rapid course correction.
Random thought to close this entry, I am treating this more like a journal than a social media account. I haven't logged into my FB in almost a week. I find I was happy with the idea I had lost access and regaining access has not left me eager to utilize it.
I actively resist the call to any sort of ministry or spiritual/philosophical outreach or "mission" for lack of a better word, but I find this sets me at odds against myself. It seems I don't get that much choice in who I am or what I will do. It only appears that I have choices and whenever I stray I face a rapid course correction.
Random thought to close this entry, I am treating this more like a journal than a social media account. I haven't logged into my FB in almost a week. I find I was happy with the idea I had lost access and regaining access has not left me eager to utilize it.