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Ok so your still on my mind, but at least I am goign out and doing things. I am trying to move past it all, slowly but surley, but part of me doesnt want to. part of me is still holding on to the good times and all the things we had in common, and how perfect we were for each other, and how i loved you. But hey i guesss those things arent everything these days. Its funny. I go out and people always say to me, wow your so fun, you are so out going,, blah blah blah, i mean , yeah i appreciate those compliments, but when is it ever going ot be enough for someone. I guess that sad truth of the matter, no matter how much guys say they want a great girl, to treat them good, and all that other bs, they dont seem to really want it. I mean i gave this guy the world on a platter. I was everything he wanted per his words, I was perfect for him per his friends. What the hell happened. Hmm was it the fact that i didnt play games...Maybe, but you know what that is bull shit. If you cant be a man and handle a mature adult relationship with out the games then you are not ready for all i have to offer. So until someone realizes the great qualiiteis i have to offer, and until i find soemone who deserves those and its a mutual agreement, I will continue to date myself. I will continue to go salsa dancing, have movie nights, go to church, play my guitar, go out with my girls, until you, the one who will realize my worth comes along. So goodbye to the little boys who want to play games, who let there exs control their future, and those who do not know a womens worth. Hello to ME, my new found self, and a new outlook on things.