First post of the year! (in my journal)
Its come to my attention that my disturbing lack of ability to recall the past has called me back to here as i re-read some more dramatic points in my life, before i settled down for a while.
The settling has occured for a while, and ive become restless enough now to embark once again on a new path in life, one which im not entirely sure is even possible.
I have worked the last 7 months at a joint called Meredith Distribution which is a distributer of nuts bolts and fasteners (and a crapload more) after i was fired from G James when the busy pre christmas holiday hype was over.
Now i have given a weeks notice of resignation as i was offered a mecanics apprenticeship, and following in the good steps of pete i hope to be able to pay for food rent electricity internet and fuel on a wage of less then $230 a week. Luckily with new laws passing through, centrelink finally makes it a little easier, i can apply for some of their crap and they will give me a further $150ish a week or fortnight apparently the lady on the other end of the phone wasn't sure.
Thats worry number one, the next few are more trivial, mostly comming from poor mmorpg drama of kicking my brother out of my guild, which has ended up in me worrying about killing his fun in the game, considering the fact he made an effort in helping and being kind to me, it feels wrong to have kicked him, and he genuinely seemed upset about it. Its been a while now, and i havn't seen him on. I would like to discuss that with him at some point.
I've been dating racheal for more then 6 months. Much more. Nearing 7 now, but it seems to be going well despite the 200km distance. My fuel money a week has been $50-$60 to incorprate this...
Credit card is no less then $4200 right now, which is a little bit of an issue considering the fact ill be earning less now.
Food. *cries* a food budget gets owned with two takeout meals on a weekend... $30 can feed me for a week, or just one day. ~_~
I have to call up and complain to telstra about them overcharging my landline...
I have to call up optus and ask why on a $75 cap plan they charged me $220.
My name is not on the lease of the house so i am not eligible for rent assistance...
Tamara is in a overly stressed mood and despit my continued efforts of niceness and caring, she seems not to want to talk about it, but free to be sharp in comments. catch 22.
Racheal is stressed over school things and I call her to find her crying over family matters or school problems.
I still have to get this Mazda 626 to the point of driving before it can be finished to get roadworthy and resold.
I have *NO* money this week, i just paid $500 rego and a $200 phone bill plus a $80 installation on the landline, not to mention racheals 18th present which ill not even speak of the price here. (whitegold)
I ate my last packet of noodles for dinner and have no money for lunch for tomorrow no bread no leftover food.
All these things will not let me sleep, and somewhat taking the effort to put them into text has somewhat just left me rather then anxious and worried, tired and depressed. Which is a better result because after working from 6:30am (after driving to work from lismore at 4:30) and working till 5:30pm you end up rather ... flat. While i'm not complaning much, my mind really is stretched to its mental limits by now (12midnight).
Though these things all laid out plain, its exciting that in a few years time ill know cars enough to exploit it for money, and a few years after that have a minimum wage which is massively larger to what it is now. ill probably take it to the point where i do go back to uni and get a master of business or something, and start a little self run ricer shop with pete or something, but the posibilities from there are much higher then they would be if i just continued on from here. if i manage to get out of this massive debt ive accumulated from overspending trying to pretend that my life wasnt just work but a benefit to my living style and proving that by buying things to make it seem worthwhile (long sentence there), I should be okay.
I'd be very happy in fact.
Who would have thunk that I'd end up a mechanic of all things. LOL
The settling has occured for a while, and ive become restless enough now to embark once again on a new path in life, one which im not entirely sure is even possible.
I have worked the last 7 months at a joint called Meredith Distribution which is a distributer of nuts bolts and fasteners (and a crapload more) after i was fired from G James when the busy pre christmas holiday hype was over.
Now i have given a weeks notice of resignation as i was offered a mecanics apprenticeship, and following in the good steps of pete i hope to be able to pay for food rent electricity internet and fuel on a wage of less then $230 a week. Luckily with new laws passing through, centrelink finally makes it a little easier, i can apply for some of their crap and they will give me a further $150ish a week or fortnight apparently the lady on the other end of the phone wasn't sure.
Thats worry number one, the next few are more trivial, mostly comming from poor mmorpg drama of kicking my brother out of my guild, which has ended up in me worrying about killing his fun in the game, considering the fact he made an effort in helping and being kind to me, it feels wrong to have kicked him, and he genuinely seemed upset about it. Its been a while now, and i havn't seen him on. I would like to discuss that with him at some point.
I've been dating racheal for more then 6 months. Much more. Nearing 7 now, but it seems to be going well despite the 200km distance. My fuel money a week has been $50-$60 to incorprate this...
Credit card is no less then $4200 right now, which is a little bit of an issue considering the fact ill be earning less now.
Food. *cries* a food budget gets owned with two takeout meals on a weekend... $30 can feed me for a week, or just one day. ~_~
I have to call up and complain to telstra about them overcharging my landline...
I have to call up optus and ask why on a $75 cap plan they charged me $220.
My name is not on the lease of the house so i am not eligible for rent assistance...
Tamara is in a overly stressed mood and despit my continued efforts of niceness and caring, she seems not to want to talk about it, but free to be sharp in comments. catch 22.
Racheal is stressed over school things and I call her to find her crying over family matters or school problems.
I still have to get this Mazda 626 to the point of driving before it can be finished to get roadworthy and resold.
I have *NO* money this week, i just paid $500 rego and a $200 phone bill plus a $80 installation on the landline, not to mention racheals 18th present which ill not even speak of the price here. (whitegold)
I ate my last packet of noodles for dinner and have no money for lunch for tomorrow no bread no leftover food.
All these things will not let me sleep, and somewhat taking the effort to put them into text has somewhat just left me rather then anxious and worried, tired and depressed. Which is a better result because after working from 6:30am (after driving to work from lismore at 4:30) and working till 5:30pm you end up rather ... flat. While i'm not complaning much, my mind really is stretched to its mental limits by now (12midnight).
Though these things all laid out plain, its exciting that in a few years time ill know cars enough to exploit it for money, and a few years after that have a minimum wage which is massively larger to what it is now. ill probably take it to the point where i do go back to uni and get a master of business or something, and start a little self run ricer shop with pete or something, but the posibilities from there are much higher then they would be if i just continued on from here. if i manage to get out of this massive debt ive accumulated from overspending trying to pretend that my life wasnt just work but a benefit to my living style and proving that by buying things to make it seem worthwhile (long sentence there), I should be okay.
I'd be very happy in fact.
Who would have thunk that I'd end up a mechanic of all things. LOL