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ok... i'm pissed. i'm VERY tired of making friends and getting close only to have them stab you in the back. i mean, is it a requirement that if you're a fag you have to trash talk your "friends" behind their backs??
i just found out tonight that someone i considered practically a best friend trash talked me behind my back. he told someone else that i "mistreat kane and i make kane mad all the time". i confronted this "friend" tonight and he tells me it was because of what i told him a few weeks ago. a few weeks back kane and i had a fight. i fucked up, straight up. i made a mistake. nobody is perfect and i felt horrible about it (and no it wasn't anywhere along the lines of cheating or anything). i really needed someone to talk to cuz i felt so damn horrible. i turned to a friend and confided in them telling them how bad i felt blah blah blah. i said something along the lines of how horrible i am and how i don't deserve kane (the normal stuff you feel whenever you fuck up in a relationship). i needed a friend to lean on and i turned to him. so he uses this info to trash me behind my back?? and THEN his excuse is that i didn't tell him this was only between us and not to tell anyone else!! ARE WE IN FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL????? sounds to me like he just tried to get this other person not to like me. jealousy issues much???
so yeah, thanks dave. strike number 2. we forgave you for your other fuck up in the past when you begged us for a second chance. i don't need a "friend" like you. friends don't try to make you feel like shit all the time like you do to me. you always try to make me feel less than you. hence why you fucked up the first time around. i spoke to you about it, then decided to give you a second chance when you practically begged for it. then you go and lie telling me how the people at the west chester party bad mouthed me behind my back even though they REALLY liked me at the party. i'm sorry that they didn't drool over you all night like you would have liked and that some people actually really liked me instead. and it's odd that you would tell kane the day after that everyone really liked me, then tell me that they were trash talking me at the party. odd huh?
and on a side note, i love it how whenever we hung out with other friends you were always included. you went and made friends with all my friends and then when you hang out you don't even bother to invite us... even when it's within 5 minutes from us.
and yeah... this LJ IS fucking drama. and i REALLY REALLY hate drama. funny how the only drama in our lives in the past year has involved you. but the main reason why i posted this is cuz i want anyone who reads this and has become a friend with you through us realizes how shitty of a friend you are. makes me wonder what else you've said behind my back too.
i'm clueless why you feel the need to always make me feel like shit dave. but this was the last straw, and it does hurt. i'm constantly hurt by friends that i get close with. why bother anymore? it seems like it's inevitable.
if anyone wants to think less of me for making this public, that's fine. i figure dave will have a completely different version of what happened anyway. i just wanted to make it known what kind of a friend he is. i'm sure this pissed you off dave, but guess what... getting pissed off at something is better than getting pissed on like you did to me. thanks for hurting us and abusing our trust.
i just found out tonight that someone i considered practically a best friend trash talked me behind my back. he told someone else that i "mistreat kane and i make kane mad all the time". i confronted this "friend" tonight and he tells me it was because of what i told him a few weeks ago. a few weeks back kane and i had a fight. i fucked up, straight up. i made a mistake. nobody is perfect and i felt horrible about it (and no it wasn't anywhere along the lines of cheating or anything). i really needed someone to talk to cuz i felt so damn horrible. i turned to a friend and confided in them telling them how bad i felt blah blah blah. i said something along the lines of how horrible i am and how i don't deserve kane (the normal stuff you feel whenever you fuck up in a relationship). i needed a friend to lean on and i turned to him. so he uses this info to trash me behind my back?? and THEN his excuse is that i didn't tell him this was only between us and not to tell anyone else!! ARE WE IN FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL????? sounds to me like he just tried to get this other person not to like me. jealousy issues much???
so yeah, thanks dave. strike number 2. we forgave you for your other fuck up in the past when you begged us for a second chance. i don't need a "friend" like you. friends don't try to make you feel like shit all the time like you do to me. you always try to make me feel less than you. hence why you fucked up the first time around. i spoke to you about it, then decided to give you a second chance when you practically begged for it. then you go and lie telling me how the people at the west chester party bad mouthed me behind my back even though they REALLY liked me at the party. i'm sorry that they didn't drool over you all night like you would have liked and that some people actually really liked me instead. and it's odd that you would tell kane the day after that everyone really liked me, then tell me that they were trash talking me at the party. odd huh?
and on a side note, i love it how whenever we hung out with other friends you were always included. you went and made friends with all my friends and then when you hang out you don't even bother to invite us... even when it's within 5 minutes from us.
and yeah... this LJ IS fucking drama. and i REALLY REALLY hate drama. funny how the only drama in our lives in the past year has involved you. but the main reason why i posted this is cuz i want anyone who reads this and has become a friend with you through us realizes how shitty of a friend you are. makes me wonder what else you've said behind my back too.
i'm clueless why you feel the need to always make me feel like shit dave. but this was the last straw, and it does hurt. i'm constantly hurt by friends that i get close with. why bother anymore? it seems like it's inevitable.
if anyone wants to think less of me for making this public, that's fine. i figure dave will have a completely different version of what happened anyway. i just wanted to make it known what kind of a friend he is. i'm sure this pissed you off dave, but guess what... getting pissed off at something is better than getting pissed on like you did to me. thanks for hurting us and abusing our trust.