Worrying
I know I worry too much. I know worrying is a total waste of time and energy. But it is so hard to stop.
I worry especially when I feel I have said the wrong thing or not handled something as I should - particularly at work. It scares me. I think I have a deep-rooted belief that if I put a foot wrong I will get into horrible trouble and bring everything crashing down - spoil everything that is good in my life. I suppose it dates back to my childhood (my father's attitude towards me, in particular.) I somehow don't believe I can get away with anything. No matter how good I am most of the time, one step out of place and there will be no mercy.
I'm on holiday now, but I can't stop worrying about something at work yesterday. I do hope I can manage to get it out of my head soon, so I can relax and actually enjoy my time off.
I worry especially when I feel I have said the wrong thing or not handled something as I should - particularly at work. It scares me. I think I have a deep-rooted belief that if I put a foot wrong I will get into horrible trouble and bring everything crashing down - spoil everything that is good in my life. I suppose it dates back to my childhood (my father's attitude towards me, in particular.) I somehow don't believe I can get away with anything. No matter how good I am most of the time, one step out of place and there will be no mercy.
I'm on holiday now, but I can't stop worrying about something at work yesterday. I do hope I can manage to get it out of my head soon, so I can relax and actually enjoy my time off.