Life and Guys....what else is new.
Looking back, I should have chosen different ideals. Or perhaps I had ideals, I just didn't stick to them. Either way, I am coming to realize, that men in this day and age don't commit. Had I been smart, I would have become religious. Those men are brought up to cherish commitment and devotion and to want a woman in their life long term.
For me, I keep finding myself becoming deeply devoted to a boyfriend, often over the course of a year or more, only to have to stifle my emotions and accept that he doesn't want to feel obligated, tied down or crowded.
I just really want, for once, to feel free to express myself in true form. I want to feel like I can love someone and it doesn't mean there is something wrong with me, that I am desperate or that I am doing something I shouldn't do.
For me, I keep finding myself becoming deeply devoted to a boyfriend, often over the course of a year or more, only to have to stifle my emotions and accept that he doesn't want to feel obligated, tied down or crowded.
I just really want, for once, to feel free to express myself in true form. I want to feel like I can love someone and it doesn't mean there is something wrong with me, that I am desperate or that I am doing something I shouldn't do.