So I Don't Know Who'll Read This But If You Think I Hate You, You Might Want To Read On...
Ok, so this is how it goes. Word for word, the complete and total truth, and if you don't belive me, well all I can say is you should. Because this is my last fighting effort to make things right. I'm a little tired of apologizing for nothing, so I'll skip that part, because I'm not sorry anymore. But anyways, I never said I hated anyone (especially Hollar, I think the girl is awesome, I always have, she's always made me laugh, and I'll most likely always think of her that way) but unfortunately, a certain someone lets call him Josh, has made it a point to lie to me, and to some of his best friends. I love the guy, we all know it, and I can't help how I feel, and yes we were planning to get back together, granted in my defense, I didn't know he was dating anyone, I didn't know he was lying to me, he is good at it what can I say? But anywho, we spent some time together, and I said because of what happened last time we dated, I wasn't sure if I felt comfortable with him hanging out with Hollar so much, again, in my defense it's not because of Hollar, I know she likes Josh as a friend, I am aware 100% of that, I worry about Josh, because it was HIS fault it happened last time, and I'm afraid he will stay true to the saying "Once a liar always a liar", and so far he has unfortunately. But moving on, I told him (word for word by the way) "Well I don't want you sacrificing any friendships for me, including hers, you all have been friends a long time, and it's not my place to play the role of jealous bitch girlfriend," at which point he told me this "I don't like Hollar anyway, she's annoying, and her friendship has never meant that much to me anyway" obviously that was a lie, I just didn't see it then. Of course, he tunred around and told one of his friends a completely different story, making me seem like I had said something horrible, when it never happened at all. So thats it, I don't hate anyone, I don't want Josh to stop hanging out with anyone, you all are his friends, and that should always be more important, but this is it. After today I don't want to hear anything else about it, or about me, or about my relationship with Mr. PArks because as of right now its nonexistant and its probably going to stay that way. So Back off, leave me alone, you can hate me forever, or we can all grow some balls and get along again, your decision not mine. But thats how it went down, and I'm sorry for any misunderstandings, and putting trust in the wrong person, I'm not the person you all make me out to be, or think I am, I am a nice person, who is easy to get along with, but I do have a boiling point like anyone else, and it has definitely been reached.