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im too tired to realize what is going on but ive thought about a few things, all the crap ive had to deal with over the years is enough for a lifetime and im 17...ive never had a relationship of any kind hell ive never even kissed anyone, it seems all the things that are spoken so highly of that are supposed to be the light of your life, i cant seem to get those things, i cant seem to reach them, but ohh ive had my share of unspeakable horrors to many of those, i feel calm and everything, just hopeless, i can live, i just dont know what for, i have no pourpose anymore, especially not as of late, im so confused....i cant have a life this way, not a life, live yes but....i dont have a life, not one that i can speak of...