So LiveJournal...
I lost myself again. I let everything pile up and get the best of me. How did I let this happen? Why did I let something like a break up totally take me over? "Love" is a crazy thing. I thought I had it in my grasp but it was actually sand slipping through my fingers one mistake at a time. But if it was the right person than I wouldnt have made those mistakes right? I mean if she really was "the one" then I would have done everything in my power to always make her feel special and not let her build up spite towards me. All I can say is lesson learned. I know what to watch out for in the future. Truth is, I think part of the reason I have been taking this so hard is because it seems like everyone is getting married and finishing school right now. And since Im still in school and my longest relationship ever just ended I felt like I was stuck in the mud. Everyone was going forwards and I was the only one at square one. This is what I get for thinking life is a race. It's time for me to calm down and refocus on myself. Figure out what I want in life. I recently spoke with someone who asked me what my version of success was for myself. The only thing I could come up with is I want to be married some day with the time to travel. That's all really. Oh and good friends and music. I want a life full of experiences, as many as possible. Well there you go