Where Are You Now?
I can seriously count, on one hand, how many times I've updated my journal in the past year. It's nothing, and I wish I had documented everything. What enticed me to write this time, was the same reason I did so last time. I just started reading random journals from the past. Reading them takes me back to where I was at that time, my mentality, my outlook. And when I've hit a low with my relationship with Erin, I go back to read about falling in love with her, and it helps bring back that thrill. I love her, and it was two years in late October that it all began. All there in that Halloween party with Juan and DeShaun, and her in her skirt and side pony-tail. My kids will never hear the end of it. One day when I'm older, and my kids are older...I'll have them read my previous entries. So they can know what kind-of things I went through when i was young. I think it would be great, I'd love to read something like that about my parents. I get a kick out of reading my dad's autographs in his yearbook.
I was reading some old entries, and I read that I was selfish. And at that time, I couldn't have been, but thats cause no one was blunt with me about it. Erin reminds me quite often as to how selfish and how into myself I am. I disregarded her claim, cause no way could that be true. And as I noticed more, I was. I'm always worrying about myself first and others second. And thats not the kind of person I want to be. By God, my own girlfriend and love of my life was calling me out on it. Convert me by any means possible.
And with that, I wish I could change a bit. I'm a little bit more older, I seriously think at times I'm a little more mature than my friends. Yes, becuase I'm in a relationship, and I've settled down, but because I'm a humble person from the start.
I want to be more religious. I caught up with a friend who I use to go to middle school with. She had some rough times in high school, and was on the same path in college. But she got "saved", as they call it. And she now directs all of her love to God. I wanna do just that, be more religious. Read the bible, go to church regularly.
In the end I want to become a better man. Not some kid...not some okay boyfriend/husband. I want people to speak of me highly, not to be mistakened for envy. I want them to simply say, "That Will is a good guy" "I can always count on him" "He's a great husband, he treats her very good". I've compiled a list of what I wanna do when I'm older and what kind-of man I wanna be when I grow older. I'll finalize that sometime later.
On a lighter note, speaking of older...I'm having some lower back pain which is bothersome, but I'm hoping it will go away.
School is going fine...I wish I could be doing better, My gpa isn't the hottest of things, and I just wish I had the same drive I had in high school to be good, better, excel, want more mentality.
Miner Football has hit the fan.
Milhouse needs to keep his head up.
Speak of...my friends need girlfriends. But like I told them, if a girl landed naked on their laps, they wouldn't know the first thing to do or say to her.
Im clueless as to what is going to happen for Thanksgiving.
My car, Rox, is not working for about 2 weeks, I've been thinking about a getting a new one. But am I ready for that responsibility again? A decision is needed soon.
And I shall vow to update soon as well.
I was reading some old entries, and I read that I was selfish. And at that time, I couldn't have been, but thats cause no one was blunt with me about it. Erin reminds me quite often as to how selfish and how into myself I am. I disregarded her claim, cause no way could that be true. And as I noticed more, I was. I'm always worrying about myself first and others second. And thats not the kind of person I want to be. By God, my own girlfriend and love of my life was calling me out on it. Convert me by any means possible.
And with that, I wish I could change a bit. I'm a little bit more older, I seriously think at times I'm a little more mature than my friends. Yes, becuase I'm in a relationship, and I've settled down, but because I'm a humble person from the start.
I want to be more religious. I caught up with a friend who I use to go to middle school with. She had some rough times in high school, and was on the same path in college. But she got "saved", as they call it. And she now directs all of her love to God. I wanna do just that, be more religious. Read the bible, go to church regularly.
In the end I want to become a better man. Not some kid...not some okay boyfriend/husband. I want people to speak of me highly, not to be mistakened for envy. I want them to simply say, "That Will is a good guy" "I can always count on him" "He's a great husband, he treats her very good". I've compiled a list of what I wanna do when I'm older and what kind-of man I wanna be when I grow older. I'll finalize that sometime later.
On a lighter note, speaking of older...I'm having some lower back pain which is bothersome, but I'm hoping it will go away.
School is going fine...I wish I could be doing better, My gpa isn't the hottest of things, and I just wish I had the same drive I had in high school to be good, better, excel, want more mentality.
Miner Football has hit the fan.
Milhouse needs to keep his head up.
Speak of...my friends need girlfriends. But like I told them, if a girl landed naked on their laps, they wouldn't know the first thing to do or say to her.
Im clueless as to what is going to happen for Thanksgiving.
My car, Rox, is not working for about 2 weeks, I've been thinking about a getting a new one. But am I ready for that responsibility again? A decision is needed soon.
And I shall vow to update soon as well.