I'm The Best Company I Will Ever Have

[skyline_anxiety]

I thought i could change things
maybe for the better
but how can i when you never
let me in
and from this place
a mere space in between
I can see everyone i have ever been
It's still you i hate and fear
and still you i find inside
you're the contradiction
that keeps me where i am
always denied
and i am afraid to say that
what i fear most is myself
I am the only one who hates me
yet the only one who will help
part of me still believes there is something else
something worthwhile
Denial is consuming though
and patience is what i lack
I will stay in this place
constantly low and wait for time to pass