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things these days are blah, not much to do out here in the middle of nowhere, but eventually i will leave this all behind for norcal, but i will never lose my socal blood, i plan on going up there sporting all my socal gear, i wont forget where i come from lol and neither will anyone else, the fun of all this is that im still single, im adjusting to the life, not really sure how it works, but its to the point that i dont even notice when im being hit on by girls, im girl crazy and i dont even notice them any more how sad is that, she ruined me for other women, pride is coming up, im not sure if im gonna go, im too afraid to see her, it might set me back to where i started and G-d knows how hard that was on me, i have gotten myself to the point where i am numb as long as i dont talk to her, and keep pretending that she doesnt exsist, its sad, but its what i need to get through life these days, so here i am, with nothing, and nothing to lose.... life throws stupid shite at me way too fucking much