And FINALLY!
No, Matt didn't "come to his senses" or anything like that. In fact, quite the opposite. I came to my senses.
I talked to a few confidantes last night about the whole situation, being as ambiguous as I could with confidential information. This morning, I woke up with a weird feeling like something was coming, some kind of epiphany. It kind of seeped into my brain at first, but the full implication hit me pretty hard. Maybe not a ton of bricks... but isn't one enough to shock you anyway?
I've been going about this the wrong way. Completely the wrong way. All this time I wanted him to get over Jamie so I could see if we would work. No. That's selfish of me. That's completely ridiculous. Matt is my friend. He is my friend above all else, and I need to help him instead of trying to help me. All this time, I've been moping because he still loves Jamie and that means there's no chance that he can love me... but he's told me that he wants to move on, he wants to get past Jamie, and I just couldn't see past my own nose at the truth.
I need to help him get over Jamie for HIM. If I'm doing it for me, I'm going to lose him, as a friend, as a potential boyfriend, everything. Right now, he doesn't need or want a boyfriend. But he does need friends. He needs people he can trust. Well, I've had my wake up call Matt, and I'm sorry it took so long, I really am. I'm going to talk to him later and tell him all of this, and hope that he can forgive me for being so shortsighted.
I feel like I've grown up, just a little bit, in realizing this. It took you a little while longer than it should have, Josh, but nonetheless, I'm proud of you.
I talked to a few confidantes last night about the whole situation, being as ambiguous as I could with confidential information. This morning, I woke up with a weird feeling like something was coming, some kind of epiphany. It kind of seeped into my brain at first, but the full implication hit me pretty hard. Maybe not a ton of bricks... but isn't one enough to shock you anyway?
I've been going about this the wrong way. Completely the wrong way. All this time I wanted him to get over Jamie so I could see if we would work. No. That's selfish of me. That's completely ridiculous. Matt is my friend. He is my friend above all else, and I need to help him instead of trying to help me. All this time, I've been moping because he still loves Jamie and that means there's no chance that he can love me... but he's told me that he wants to move on, he wants to get past Jamie, and I just couldn't see past my own nose at the truth.
I need to help him get over Jamie for HIM. If I'm doing it for me, I'm going to lose him, as a friend, as a potential boyfriend, everything. Right now, he doesn't need or want a boyfriend. But he does need friends. He needs people he can trust. Well, I've had my wake up call Matt, and I'm sorry it took so long, I really am. I'm going to talk to him later and tell him all of this, and hope that he can forgive me for being so shortsighted.
I feel like I've grown up, just a little bit, in realizing this. It took you a little while longer than it should have, Josh, but nonetheless, I'm proud of you.