The Brink of Grownupdom
You may have noticed that I haven't posted in a long, long time.
I successfully completed my Lent promise of not posting on LJ (save for the life changing entry on my decision to move to NYC). What I discovered was that although I love the way blogs can allow me a space to measure my thoughts and experiences, it had become something purely narcissistic. Meaning, I was too busy looking at my cyber reflection to engage in real life.
I still haunt ONTD and read my friends' entries. However, I don't want to go back to the compulsive posting about stupid shit that I've already stressed about. In the last two months, I've stopped overanalyzing things quite so much. Now, I see where I want to be in life, figure out the steps necessary to get there, and do it.
This Saturday I move to New York. I will be living in a nice apartment in Sunnyside, Queens. Next Monday I start work as a Research Assistant at a really nice financial firm in midtown Manhattan. The office is across from 30 Rock. The office's exteriors and lobbies were also used in The Devil Wears Prada--eek!. In two weeks, I start sketch writing classes at the Magnet under the tutelage of improv guru Armando Diaz. This summer, I will be joining the NYRR (New York Road Runners) with the aim of running the 2012 ING NYC Marathon.
So basically, once I stopped moaning about things, I was able to change my life. The scariest part of this process is how easy everything fell into place. The universe wants this for me, and that really chills me. I am bursting with confidence and I feel like a brand new woman. I think I am finally turning into the person I always dreamed of being. It scares and excites me and all I can say is I wish everyone could find the light inside them. I wish everyone knew that you can change the things that don't work in your life. I wish everyone had this opportunity that I have laid out in front of me... But I know not everyone does. The best thing I can do is take every chance offered me, and enjoy every second of this life I've managed to set up for myself.
I'll try to post major updates as they come...but for now...the lights are out and only a ghost light remains...
I successfully completed my Lent promise of not posting on LJ (save for the life changing entry on my decision to move to NYC). What I discovered was that although I love the way blogs can allow me a space to measure my thoughts and experiences, it had become something purely narcissistic. Meaning, I was too busy looking at my cyber reflection to engage in real life.
I still haunt ONTD and read my friends' entries. However, I don't want to go back to the compulsive posting about stupid shit that I've already stressed about. In the last two months, I've stopped overanalyzing things quite so much. Now, I see where I want to be in life, figure out the steps necessary to get there, and do it.
This Saturday I move to New York. I will be living in a nice apartment in Sunnyside, Queens. Next Monday I start work as a Research Assistant at a really nice financial firm in midtown Manhattan. The office is across from 30 Rock. The office's exteriors and lobbies were also used in The Devil Wears Prada--eek!. In two weeks, I start sketch writing classes at the Magnet under the tutelage of improv guru Armando Diaz. This summer, I will be joining the NYRR (New York Road Runners) with the aim of running the 2012 ING NYC Marathon.
So basically, once I stopped moaning about things, I was able to change my life. The scariest part of this process is how easy everything fell into place. The universe wants this for me, and that really chills me. I am bursting with confidence and I feel like a brand new woman. I think I am finally turning into the person I always dreamed of being. It scares and excites me and all I can say is I wish everyone could find the light inside them. I wish everyone knew that you can change the things that don't work in your life. I wish everyone had this opportunity that I have laid out in front of me... But I know not everyone does. The best thing I can do is take every chance offered me, and enjoy every second of this life I've managed to set up for myself.
I'll try to post major updates as they come...but for now...the lights are out and only a ghost light remains...