her pathetic cell phone lament
I hate that I always always say I'll wait this time
wait for you to call me
to come to me
that I wont make myself feel
more and more pathetic and unloved
by calling and third and forth time
but I can't ever seem to stand the waiting part
the loud loud silence of the phone not ringing
I hate that I always always know
when I hear the third ring
you wont be picking up this time
but I still I wait for the automated voice
for a cool robotic woman to tell me
you're unavailable
how true
And I know, that Im pathetic. Just like I know I'll end up calling you before you call me. and I wont be able to sleep tonight, because you'll never called. Because Im waiting. and I'll wake up at sunrise with my cell phone in my hand. my stupid cell phone.
thegirloutthere (9:00:49 PM): Im so damn scared Im sick to my stomach and I suppressed it just long enough to clean my room and shower and put on make up and clean clothes at nine o'clock at night, and then by the third ring I was positive I knew he wasn't coming.
samanthakbeane (9:17:48 PM): beLIEVE me i understand.
my hair is wet. my goddamnhair is wet and it will be all sleepless night long.
martyn's right. no one reads these things anymore. - thank god.