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[skyfishie]

I hate it when I do really stupid things. I wanted to go so badly to this master yoga class offered today. But I had a class and couldn't go. I was so upset. Then, my professor emailed last night saying that her daughter is very sick and she had to cancel class. I was so thrilled!!! I could go to the yoga class! But then I screw it all up. I had a paper due this morning and I waited forever to do it and had to get up early this morning to revise it. Then I didn't have my second or third class, all I had to do was post on Blackboard by 12 for my Myth, Ritual and Symbol class and yoga started by 12. But, I couldn't even get my work done when there was something I wanted so badly. I only just completed the post by 12 and I got changed quick. And then, I ran to the elevator... and it was broken. At that point I had to pee so I went. Then I realized I would be 15 minutes late to the class. So then I stood around trying to decided if I should still go or if it would be too rude of me to show up (at this point) 20 minutes late. Then, I become totally depressed and completely gave up and I end up not going. I feel so lame and depressed. If only I would plan ahead and get my work done! If only I didn't procrastinate so much! If only! If only! And instead, I allow myself to suffer and to miss out on the things I really want. Why I am so stupid?

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< sigh... >