Oct 14, 2008 23:11
I've been thinking lately about moving home at the end of this lease. My priorities have shifted so much in the last 6 months; all I'm focused on now is getting through each semester of uni, and paying off my enormous credit card debt. And, to a lesser extent, making sure Tom's life is going in the right direction.
I miss my cats, Koi & Sierra. Whilst I now have a new one, Princess, I still want to spend time with the others, as I grew up with them. Koi is my little man!
I'm really trying to look forward now. For such a long time I didn't want to think about the future, because I didn't want to be disappointed if my dreams fell apart. But I'm starting to understand now that you can't hide from failure by trying not to commit to anything; that's ludicrous. I have to be brave and face what life sends my way.
So I'm knuckling down at uni. I am thinking about what I want to do and where I want to go. And whilst I still try to enjoy each moment for what it is, I now think it's possible to delay gratification and have even greater enjoyment in the future.
My mother would be so proud if she read this.