Oct 18, 2005 16:29
-where do you see yourself in 3 years?
hopefully i'll be flying around the world as an international flight
attendent. meanwhile, going to school to get my masters in psychology.
-what about kids? how old will you be?
well, i always wanted to be a young cool mom, so maybe my first kid will perhaps be when i'm 28.
-what will your wedding look like?
not sure, haven't thought of. but i know i want the reception to be in
a grand ballroom with lots of beautiful chandeliers, lilies scattered
everyone, a great dancefloor, and all the tables will be placed around
the dancefloor.
-dream home?
a dollhouse. a big yard. white picket fence. wrap-around porch. 3
floors - a big basement where i can make that the kids playroom and
they hang out there, the main floor will be the living area with a
living room furnished with a piano, but everyone will hang out in the
den because the living room is only for guests, and the upstairs will
be the bedrooms. hopefully 3-4 bedrooms depending on how many kids. my
bathroom has to be marble and has a big bathtub so i can place candles
all around. and well, i've gone into too much details.
-ok, what about the place you will actually have in 5 years?
hopefully i'll be in a small house or townhome by then. of course
still in the city because i want to be in the city for as long as i can
when i'm young. i'll move to the suberbs when i have a family.
-if you could go back in the past and change one thing, what is it?
wow, if i can change one thing, i wouldnt know what to change.
for as any other person, i made so many mistakes growing up that only
made me who i am today. but i guess my biggest regret that comes to
mind is that i should have waited. i mean, everyone says that. but i
truly was blindsighted and foolish, and gave it to someone truly
unworthy of it.
-life?
philosophize in one long sentence, sophomoric as we sound,
it
is a tricky thing. love is such a great thing but can hurt so much.
time is long but yet we have so little of it. bad things happen but
its those bad things that shapes who you are and can only make you
stronger.
-you know
when you get that feeling before you go to bed, the one where you just
wanna call someone special or wish they would rather be there with you
so you could hold them? what do you do? What can you do?
well, i don't have any significant somebody in my life that makes me feel that
way. so i can only go to sleep hoping to dream a pleasant dream of
someone who will one day make me feel that way.
-what is your worst character flaw?
(you are your worst critic, truth hurts, let it out)
i'm judgmental. its the worst trait in anyone, and i know this yet i can't change it.
-would you tell your love your darkest secrets?
i dont know. though i'm judgmental of others, i'm scare to let people get too close because of their judgement of me.
-can love be measured by loss?
of course.
-how do you let out stress?
i talk to my 3 confidant. jimmy, daphne and amy. they are the 3 that
know the most, care the most, and that i trust the most. once i vent,
then i can breathe again. and then i sit down and listen to songs with
careful meanings, try to think things through, and then get over it.
-one song - one - that describes you or evokes emotions most from you.
i'm moving on by rascal flatts. its a song about letting go. one thing
i learn in life is that there's always parts of you that you can never
change, and it will always haunt you. but you have to learn to move
past it. this song always gives me the chill and makes me cry.
-one inanimate object you'd take to 'utopia'
pictures. those are my life memories.
-dreamer, fighter, lover, or realist?
dreamer.
-one picture you have kept over the years?
i've kept every pic i've ever had.
-whats a memory you hold fondest from your childhood?
when my parents would take me to the park in canada and we would feed
the ducks in the pond. and me and my mom would be in our pretty flowery
dresses and my dad would take pictures of us in front all the flowers.
that was when my parents truly loved each other and we were a whole
family. and those were the happiest memories of my parents.
-be drawn, written in a song/poem about, photographed, or dreamt of (as in sleep dream)?
dreamt of...
-so you're crushing hard, what do you do?
so apparently, i am crushing hard on cute boy. and what had i done
about it? kept him far far far away. because i've got to the point
where if i find someoen so alluring, i dont want to get to know him and
find out that he wasn't what i had dreamt he would be.
-one virtue about you?
i use to think i'm very patience. but now i'm not so sure.
-what keeps you going? (not on this survey, in life)
friends and family. i keep trying to move along even though i want to
stop and quit because i'm so unsure of what i want to do with my life.
but they keep me going, encouraging me and by not wanting to disappoint
them, i keep going.
-describe your other - the other that you are searching for (or may have found)
he's handsome. he's funny and he makes me laugh- all the live long day.
he has a charming personality. people just like him because there's a
quality about him yet we don't know what it is. he's a nice guy.
unselfish and always considerate. he takes care of me when i don't ask.
he makes me think of him when i go to bed at night and when i wake up
in the morning. he gives me butterflies and makes me giddy with
happiness. hardworking and smart. and he pushes me to do more, to be
better yet not making me feel bad about myself. k, now i'm getting too
mushy.
-what is the perfect date?
i dont know. i was never good with questions like these because if its with the right guys, any date would feel perfect.
-why do you listen to the music you listen to?
i listen to country because sometimes its really funny. but most times,
its songs written about real life that you can relate to. love, friends
and families. i listen to rock because it makes me feel like even the
bad rough guys can be deep and can love.
i listen to hiphop cuase its makes me happy and want to get up and
dance.
i listen to r&b bc most singers have very good vocals. i listen to
pop because its fun and its girly.
-write for others or yourself?
livejournals are for others. my journal is for me.
-last time you cried - why?
i can't remember. perhaps over the summer about my parents.
-when was your last love letter?
i dont write love letters.
-how sentimental are you?
very. i keep everything that reminds me of something. that's probably why i take so many pictures.
-what would you do if you saw your ex right now (one that you were serious with)
not sure. a part of me wants to say hi, talk to him and make amends so
my heart can be at rest. but the other part of me don't think he
deserves any bit of acknowledgement from me.
-how spontaneous are you?
i use to be very. not not at all. now i'm just boring.
-favorite quote - famous or otherwise?
"God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the
courage to change that things that can, and the wisdom to know the
difference."
-invincible, invisible, or insane?
insane.
-what animal are you?
rabbit.
-destiny/coincidences/fate/karma - what do you believe in?
all. i think things will happen accordingly.
-on that note, why are we here?
i truly do not know.
-favorite thing to wake up to?
smell of coffee.
-whats your take on bush?
he's doing the best he could. not the best president, but still our president. (sorry paul).
-monk, president, terrorist, or celebrity?
celebrity! i want to be an actress!
-you lose one of your five senses, which one is it?
smell...
-last epiphany?
ummmm
-last thing you learned about your friends?
that sometimes people will change. and if you cant accept them, then
you should let them go. sometimes my biggest fault is that i hold on
to people i care about thinking that as long as i hold on to them,
things will get better. but they don't. and perhaps, sometimes its best
just to let go. and yes, you think sometimes your friends are the best
people. but you can be wrong. because they can selfish and
inconsiderate. and its possible that they don't care about you as much as you care about them.
-so you're chilling with you from 5 years ago and you 5 years from now, what happens now?
me 5yrsago is young and childish. and me now would look at me
5yrsfromnow and think, wow... i'm glad you aren't still me5yrsago,
because me 5yrsfromnow will be such a better person than me5yrsago and
me now.
survey.