Aug 10, 2006 21:52
update...yes up to date
i like babysitting my cousin sometimes, but then there are other times when i just was to say thats enough with you, and walk away. the youngest one loves me, she bought me thin sweet cup, i really like it.
i hate the feeling of being the third wheel. with some people i can stand, but then there are the other people who...well i cant
i have all these dreams. i have made a list of what i want to do before i die. i wonder if i will actually go thru with it all. being a bum seems the best way to go. i could be like chirs mccandless and change my name to alex (into the wild)
sometimes i just wish that i had a time machine. so i can go back in time when everything was what it sounded like. the age when things did not matter. when you and your best friend get in a fight and you are mad at each other for a few moments and the mommy said to say sorry and everything is ok. you dont even remember what you were fighting about.
my mom thinks that i am trying to kill myself.
college is to far away. it needs to come faster. i need to get out of here. i need my own life with out any parents. turning 18 needs to come faster too. he just needs to die
i'm gonna free fall out into not
nothin', gonna leave this world for a while