Closure
I know I haven't posted in almost a year now. Things have changed so rapidly... I'm afraid to stumble back on this thing of the past because it brings back memories of the past. The good and the bad. I mean, I've had this for years now... but what's significant is still fresh in my mind.
I curse the ex gf for everything she has done to me. I felt a lot of love in our relationship but somewhere along the line, I just fell out of love. I didn't love her anymore because of all the hurt that built up inside of me. She tried to hang herself with an iron to see how far she can go with my feelings, she threatened me with everything i had. She threatened to kill herself while we were in Hawaii, she wouldn't let me see my best friend/sister... the list goes on. I should've seen the signs... in the beginning of our relationship, she would hate me for having friends. She emotionally abused me for being me. There were times when things were great but nothing tops the feeling of losing your dignity. She never thought of my well-being, only hers. Only her feelings mattered. I was just a piece of meat waiting to be butchered I guess. I wish that she could see what the fuck she's done but she's too immature and too selfish to understand.
Now, I live happily and far away from LA. I talk to my friends often and I have a great relationship with someone who adores and respects me. We have been together for almost two years now and I can say that I am truly happy. She never threatened to do anything to me, we have the same perspective on things and she has given me a whole new light on happiness. I talk to best friend/sis as often as I change my underwear... we're good. We have seen each other twice this year... and will be neighbors soon enough.
I don't know why I decided to post this... I guess it forms some sort of closure in a fair way. My ex is stupid and the most irresponsible person I have ever met and I'm glad that things are the way they are now. I was a child then, but I realized how much happier I am without her negative karma.
I curse the ex gf for everything she has done to me. I felt a lot of love in our relationship but somewhere along the line, I just fell out of love. I didn't love her anymore because of all the hurt that built up inside of me. She tried to hang herself with an iron to see how far she can go with my feelings, she threatened me with everything i had. She threatened to kill herself while we were in Hawaii, she wouldn't let me see my best friend/sister... the list goes on. I should've seen the signs... in the beginning of our relationship, she would hate me for having friends. She emotionally abused me for being me. There were times when things were great but nothing tops the feeling of losing your dignity. She never thought of my well-being, only hers. Only her feelings mattered. I was just a piece of meat waiting to be butchered I guess. I wish that she could see what the fuck she's done but she's too immature and too selfish to understand.
Now, I live happily and far away from LA. I talk to my friends often and I have a great relationship with someone who adores and respects me. We have been together for almost two years now and I can say that I am truly happy. She never threatened to do anything to me, we have the same perspective on things and she has given me a whole new light on happiness. I talk to best friend/sis as often as I change my underwear... we're good. We have seen each other twice this year... and will be neighbors soon enough.
I don't know why I decided to post this... I guess it forms some sort of closure in a fair way. My ex is stupid and the most irresponsible person I have ever met and I'm glad that things are the way they are now. I was a child then, but I realized how much happier I am without her negative karma.