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[skybee]

i'd really love to have a little kittykat. i'm sure i could sweet talk my landlord into letting me have one. but the thing is, i guess i have major attachment issues, by that i mean i don't like attachments. i haven't had a boyfriend in over three years and i really don't particularly want one either. i could take it or leave it. i'm scared if i get a pet i'll have to leave it, and i'd be too sad if that happens. by leaving it i mean i may have to go away suddenly for work. (if i ever get another acting job again that is!) i'm an optimist and i believe that i will have work soon. i may need to relocate to melbourne or to london or to the US. i mean, i realise this is not going to happen tomorrow, but lets say i get a kat and then in a years time i get a regular gig in (god forbid) sydney. most places these days don't let you have pets. i'd hate to have to give it up. it's really quite odd but i guess i equate having a pet as selling out my dream? there's just nowhere i could put it if i had to relocate suddenly. ma and pa have a very neurotic dog and have already warned me no pet dumpings. my sister is very anal and would say no to taking a pet. she'd have to have thought about it for 986498722 years then would say no anyway. and i just couldn't hand a beloved animal over to the rspca. that would scar me deeply. and i don't really have many friends. kraig would always help me in any way he could but he lives with his nan at the moment and that would not be possible.
i don't know what i'm getting at here, i had quite a profound revelation going on but i lost it somewhere in the middle.
*sigh*
anway, don't mind me. for some reason i'm vay vay tired..see dark circles under eyes?
i guess i'll have to be happy with little nichi here :)