Like anyone will read this.

[skyangel089]

I'm not really sure why I'm writing a journal entry when it's been like three months and probably will be several more before I decide to write again. I don't write on here because it really just involves too much effort. I just write in my own personal journal and I can be mean and not feel quite so guilty. :-D Since I'm apparently a mean person, and not very friendly towards people. I don't intend to be, but on more than one occasion people have said to me that they thought I didn't like them when that wasn't really the case at all. I feel bad for that, but I don't know, I try to be a nice person. I guess usually during the day I have a list of things to get done and I'm so focused on the list sometimes that I forget about being friendly or just taking time to have a conversation. I've realized that once people are gone you realize that you missed out on a lot of good times and friendships. I think that more people should get to know each other, because everyone has something interesting to share with another. Also, like Kristen said, I'm not anti-hugging or anything, but people seem to think that. It must go along with the mean-vibe I give off. Which, like I already said is not intentional. It's not that I'm never emotional, I just don't tend to express my feelings much, I deal with it other ways. Then again, a lot of things don't affect me the way they should. When someone lets me down, or leaves my life then I just kind of get over it and move on. I suppose I have a certain friend to thank for that mantra (get over yourself) even though it pissed me off a lot more a few years ago. It takes quite a bit to really make me upset or angry, but it does happen. I think I'm a lot more irritable this year because I just don't want to be in school. I'm so ready to get out of Fulton, and I know every senior says this and then isn't ready to go, but I just need to find out for myself. I really kind of want to stop teaching Sunday School too, because my heart just isn't there anymore. I need something else from my church experience, and honestly I don't think I can get it where I am. Everyone has known me since I was born, and I feel like I just need new people who I can talk to and experience new things with. I don't know if that makes sense, but I don't seem to know much lately any way. I'm done now, and I bet all of two people made it this far. Kudos to you! Haha

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