Jul 28, 2004 13:39
dearest boy
hey, its your biggest fan, jennifer jaser.
you have given me much incentive to write you this letter.
excuse my gay ass handwriting. well you're at work right now
or something cool. i did not have work today because my boss
told me not to come in. she just enjoys paying me less. what
a selfish crab. so i'm rather confused about life right now.
i like to appreciate when nice things happen to me unexpectedly
but it makes me really impatient. i think that if friends came
more easily then i'd proably have more of a life. i know how much
of an online-loser you think i am, but you love me<3 you know what's
bad? i have not been working on my art lately. i've had so many unknown
setbacks keeping me from my passion. do you have a cure for
procrastination? because i really think the whole world needs
an abundance of it. people just suck at getting things done and
before you know it, it's time to be buried. i think the world
could use a good dose of caring because apathy has become quite
an epidemic. we should make a difference somehow. i dont know
what to do. let's go to the city and just look at the night lights.
if city lights were stars, i'd have the most spoiled mind. i wish
i could live in the sky so i could see galaxies and galaxies beyond.
i wonder if there are seahorses on other planets. i would buy one
if possible. i have no boundaries. if space was limited i'd be really
sad. i hope it goes on forever. i wonder if there is an actual thing
called "NOTHINGNESS". i want to be where that exists. isn't it weird
how "nothing" will always be considered "something". if when you die,
you can still see things on earth, i would see lots of sex because
i think im deprived on that matter. sex is so interestingly col.
you could be so creative yet the feelings stay the same most of the
time. exciting people is such a fun thing to do. i want a boyfriend
who gets excited over strange shit, like the way i blink my eyes
or the way i eat cereal, or some crazy stuff. you know? i'm just a girl
in a small town. i want to go and play in the woods. i want to build
sand castles and pretend TVs dont exist. i want to be sleep deprived
from watching grass sway in the breeze. i hope you know how i feel.
i hope everything i've ever felt was not just a FALSIFIED peice of
decaying energy. is love true? i hope to truly find out one day.
well i think it's time for me to stop. i love you.
your pen pal
jennyjenjen<3