Amore motus (Matsumiya) 5/5 *end*
Title: Amore motus 5/5
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.
„Please, let’s go home now, okay?” Nino said after a while. He and Jun still stood in the bathroom of this bar. Jun had stopped crying, but he was still leaning into Nino’s hug. “I don’t want to discuss anything further right here.”
He could feel Jun nodding. Nino felt the knot in his belly dissolving a tiny bit. He looked at Jun, who looked more horrible than ever before. It was a mixture between drunkenness and sadness, but also something like relieve. Maybe Nino would manage it to make Jun talk about his problems now.
They left the bar and Nino could feel Jun leaning against him. The fresh air mixed with the alcohol wasn’t good for Jun. It was like his drunkenness increased without drinking something more. “My life is a big bunch of broken pieces of glass. It’s completely worthless.”
“Jun, can we talk when we’re at home?” Nino asked. They had to cross this stupid big park till they’d get to Nino’s apartment. It had been one of his requirements: He wanted to go to a bar not far away from his home - which turned out to be perfect in this situation.
“We can talk about everything,” Jun said with a laugh. That would become another great night for Nino.
“Good, we are soon at home, Jun,” Nino said.
~~~
Nino panted heavily when they reached his apartment. He still had to carry Jun, who leaned heavily on his right side. “Okay, I leave you here for a moment, okay Jun?” Nino placed Jun against the wall and hoped he’d just stay like this. He fumbled with his keys and opened the door. With one foot he held the door open and stretched to get Jun from the wall. “Come.” He pulled on Jun’s arm. Jun stumbled forward and giggled when he bumped against Nino.
Nino pulled Jun along till they reached the couch. He pushed Jun down and pressed his hands into his hips. “You stay here, I get you some water and some ice.”
“Oh, I want some beer and wine, Kazu,” Jun laughed.
Nino rolled his eyes. That would become a great night. He needed to get Jun back to his senses. “Here,” Nino said and placed a glass of water on the table.
“Where is the ice?” Jun whined like a child. He shrieked when Nino placed a towel with ice cubes in Jun’s neck.
“Are you feeling better now?” Nino grumbled.
“No, I freeze,” Jun said.
“But at least you get back to normal again,” Nino sat next to Jun. “Jun, I don’t want to see you like this again. You need to stop this horror with the alcohol and your bar visits. It’s enough.”
Jun looked down on his feet. First he didn’t say anything, but then he looked up at Nino. “I …” He shook his head. “I ruined everything. It was my fault, Kazu.”
“What did you do, Jun?” Nino asked. Of course he knew some things from Sho already, but he wanted Jun to talk with him about everything.
Jun leaned back. “I betrayed Sho-kun. I met a nice guy in a bar, and it happened.” Jun looked at Nino. “I ended the relationship and now I am here. I have nothing but mess in my life.”
“Why did you do this, Jun?”
Jun had his eyes wide open. He didn’t seem to count with this question. “I don’t know.”
Nino smiled at him. “Is it possible that you weren’t happy in your relationship?”
Jun fumbled with his bracelet. He was nervous. “Is that what Sho says?”
Nino froze. What should he say now? Yes, it was what Sho had told him, but how would Jun react to this. Nino just nodded.
Jun snorted. “I don’t know why you talk with him about me.”
Nino shifted on his seat. He didn’t know if he was allowed to get closer to Jun. In the end he didn’t dare to sit next to his friend. “Because he is worried, Jun. And he asked me to help him, because he knows how much I care about you.”
Jun’s eyes switched from dark and cold to warm and tender. It seemed Nino had found the right words in this moment. “I was happy at the beginning of our relationship. Sho was caring, sweet and nice. Don’t get me wrong,” Jun said when he saw Nino’s dark glance. “He was always nice and sweet to me, even in more difficult times.”
“What changed between the two of you?” Nino asked.
Jun sighed. “You know what happened to me before I got together with Sho.”
Nino nodded. He felt a cold shiver running down his spine when he thought about the time after Jun had had this horrible time. “After my ex had betrayed me for years, I swore that I would never, never do that to someone else. And after he had mistreated me for months, I swore that my next relationship would be different, and that I would find someone who treats me good.”
Jun rubbed his face. “And I had found it with Sho.” Jun drank some water. He breathed out deeply. It was hard for him to talk about all of this. “But after some years of being together I felt my feelings change. I still liked him, I always did, but there was something different from before. It wasn’t love anymore. I like him, but not enough to stay in a relationship with him. I found myself being interested in someone else.”
Nino could see Jun suffer while talking. He pushed away all his thoughts and slipped next to Jun on the couch. He pulled his arm around Jun and stroked down his back. “Why didn’t you end it immediately?”
Nino could see a tear dropping down on the ground. Jun wasn’t looking at him. He stared at the carpet like he wanted to hypnotize it. After a while he looked up at Nino. “I couldn’t end it. I was so damn proud, and I thought that I had found what I longed for years ago. I had someone who took care of me, who treated me good, who loved me. But one day I couldn’t stand it anymore. I was stuck in this feeling of missing something. I went to this bar and it just happened.” Jun sobbed. “I didn’t even think about if it’s wrong what I do. I just did it. I wasn’t even drunk, it was my decision.”
“Jun,” Nino started, but got immediately interrupted.
“No, I am the worst person ever. I did what I never wanted to experience again. And I did this to my boyfriend, to the one I once loved and still liked.” Jun pointed at himself. It burdened him.
“Does it help when I tell you that Sho didn’t assault you for what you have done,” Nino said.
“No, not much,” Jun shook his head.
“You aren’t a bad person, Jun.” Nino drew some small patterns over Jun’s back. “Maybe your relationship was meant to end here. Maybe you should have ended it long before this happened?” Oh great, Nino hated himself for saying this out loud. He really should learn to keep his thoughts behind.
“You mean Sho had the same feelings?” Jun asked. Now Nino was wondering. Hadn’t Sho told Jun that he wasn’t in love with Jun anymore?
Nino just nodded. It didn’t matter if he told Jun the whole truth now. Maybe it would help Jun. “Can you please stop with these alcohol escapades, Jun?”
Jun looked at him. “Kazu.”
“No.” Nino raised his hand. “I want you to stop this self-destruction. You are such a great guy, Jun. There is no other way than loving you. You are good-hearted, sweet, caring and all over that you are good looking.”
Jun laughed at that. “Thank you, Kazu.”
Nino felt something in him clenching. He had another question, but he didn’t dare to ask it. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously, thinking about it again and again. Damn, it didn’t matter now. “Jun, you said you fell for someone else?”
Jun blinked at him. He nodded silently. Was there a blush on Jun’s face? “Yes,” Jun started. “During the years my feelings for someone changed. I think my feelings for my best friend changed from my feelings years ago.”
Nino nodded. “Who is he?”
Jun looked at him with eyes wide open. “Kazu, you have the best senses when it’s about feelings, intentions and behaviour from others. So you are kidding me now, right?”
Nino froze. He was sure that he looked like frozen when he had heard Jun’s words. “You mean…” he croaked and pointed at himself.
Jun nodded. “But you really don’t need to return …” Jun started, but Nino had already wrapped his arms around Jun and pulled him into an embrace. To hell with his own worries and thoughts of it would be alright for Sho or someone else. He had waited so long for this to happen, and he never thought that this would ever happen to them.
“I want you to stop this crap, Jun,” Nino whispered into the other one’s ear. He could feel Jun’s hands wrapping around his waist, pulling him closer.
“Okay.”
“And I want you to talk with Sho about everything. He was worried about you like hell, and he deserves a proper talk,” Nino said further.
He could feel Jun’s grip tighten. He sighed. “Okay.”
Nino let his lips roam over Jun’s neck. He breathed in the well-known Jun-like smell he loved for so long. This was too good to be true. Nino had longed for that, and it was unbelievable that it happened to him right now.
Nino could feel Jun pulling him closer till he was almost sitting on his lap. “It was the biggest burden for me to have you next to me as my friend, because my feeling of a friendship turning into something else got stronger and stronger. And I didn’t want Sho to…”
Nino dissolved a bit from the embrace. “Stop it now, Jun. I want you to clear everything with Sho and with your worries about breaking up and with everything you have done. After that we’ll talk about everything concerning us, okay?”
Jun suddenly chuckled. “When did you become so mature, Kazu?”
Nino opened his mouth and closed it again. His eyes got smaller. “You’re stupid, Jun.”
Jun laughed out. “Thank you so much for kicking my ass, Kazu. I think I’ll get out of this.”
“That sounds Jun-like.” Nino gave Jun a thumb up.
“Can I at least give you one kiss before I need to get my life back into normal again?” Jun asked, his finger brushing over Nino’s cheek.
“Oh god, yes,” Nino sighed. He had waited so long for this.
He could feel Jun’s lips brushing over his before he started to deepen the kiss. Nino felt like fireworks exploding in him. This was definitely the best feeling he had ever experienced.
~~~
Nino walked up and down in his apartment. He looked at the clock on the wall almost every second. When the door finally opened he almost jump up. “Jun,” he said.
He stopped when he saw Jun’s tear drained face. Jun looked up at him, smiling a little bit. “Is everything okay?”
Jun nodded. He took Nino’s hand and both went to the living room where they sat down. Nino didn’t know why, but he was incredibly nervous about this. Maybe he feared that Jun would break down again after talking with Sho. “It was good. We talked openly about everything, even about the not so nice things.”
Nino swallowed. “That’s good.” He slipped closer to Jun. “And you feel better now?”
Jun nodded. “I feel like a burden dropped down from me.”
“That’s really good to hear, Jun. Now you can make a step forward.” Nino brushed Jun’s cheek.
Jun nodded. He leaned closer and took Nino’s face between his hands. “Only forward, and no break down anymore.” He smiled before he left some butterfly kisses on Nino’s face.
“And now can we please make the next step in our relationship?” Jun grinned evilly.
Nino smacked Jun’s head playfully, and shrugged then. “I hoped you’d ask for it.”
Nino let himself being carried into the bedroom, and closed the door when Jun let him down again. Yes, the best time would start now.
A/N: Hello my friends, thanks so much for reading this story <3 I really hope you liked it. ^^ So Jun can start a new life now, together with Nino, who finally gets his chance :D
Next Friday I will start a loooong multi chapter <3 I hope to see you there <3
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.
„Please, let’s go home now, okay?” Nino said after a while. He and Jun still stood in the bathroom of this bar. Jun had stopped crying, but he was still leaning into Nino’s hug. “I don’t want to discuss anything further right here.”
He could feel Jun nodding. Nino felt the knot in his belly dissolving a tiny bit. He looked at Jun, who looked more horrible than ever before. It was a mixture between drunkenness and sadness, but also something like relieve. Maybe Nino would manage it to make Jun talk about his problems now.
They left the bar and Nino could feel Jun leaning against him. The fresh air mixed with the alcohol wasn’t good for Jun. It was like his drunkenness increased without drinking something more. “My life is a big bunch of broken pieces of glass. It’s completely worthless.”
“Jun, can we talk when we’re at home?” Nino asked. They had to cross this stupid big park till they’d get to Nino’s apartment. It had been one of his requirements: He wanted to go to a bar not far away from his home - which turned out to be perfect in this situation.
“We can talk about everything,” Jun said with a laugh. That would become another great night for Nino.
“Good, we are soon at home, Jun,” Nino said.
~~~
Nino panted heavily when they reached his apartment. He still had to carry Jun, who leaned heavily on his right side. “Okay, I leave you here for a moment, okay Jun?” Nino placed Jun against the wall and hoped he’d just stay like this. He fumbled with his keys and opened the door. With one foot he held the door open and stretched to get Jun from the wall. “Come.” He pulled on Jun’s arm. Jun stumbled forward and giggled when he bumped against Nino.
Nino pulled Jun along till they reached the couch. He pushed Jun down and pressed his hands into his hips. “You stay here, I get you some water and some ice.”
“Oh, I want some beer and wine, Kazu,” Jun laughed.
Nino rolled his eyes. That would become a great night. He needed to get Jun back to his senses. “Here,” Nino said and placed a glass of water on the table.
“Where is the ice?” Jun whined like a child. He shrieked when Nino placed a towel with ice cubes in Jun’s neck.
“Are you feeling better now?” Nino grumbled.
“No, I freeze,” Jun said.
“But at least you get back to normal again,” Nino sat next to Jun. “Jun, I don’t want to see you like this again. You need to stop this horror with the alcohol and your bar visits. It’s enough.”
Jun looked down on his feet. First he didn’t say anything, but then he looked up at Nino. “I …” He shook his head. “I ruined everything. It was my fault, Kazu.”
“What did you do, Jun?” Nino asked. Of course he knew some things from Sho already, but he wanted Jun to talk with him about everything.
Jun leaned back. “I betrayed Sho-kun. I met a nice guy in a bar, and it happened.” Jun looked at Nino. “I ended the relationship and now I am here. I have nothing but mess in my life.”
“Why did you do this, Jun?”
Jun had his eyes wide open. He didn’t seem to count with this question. “I don’t know.”
Nino smiled at him. “Is it possible that you weren’t happy in your relationship?”
Jun fumbled with his bracelet. He was nervous. “Is that what Sho says?”
Nino froze. What should he say now? Yes, it was what Sho had told him, but how would Jun react to this. Nino just nodded.
Jun snorted. “I don’t know why you talk with him about me.”
Nino shifted on his seat. He didn’t know if he was allowed to get closer to Jun. In the end he didn’t dare to sit next to his friend. “Because he is worried, Jun. And he asked me to help him, because he knows how much I care about you.”
Jun’s eyes switched from dark and cold to warm and tender. It seemed Nino had found the right words in this moment. “I was happy at the beginning of our relationship. Sho was caring, sweet and nice. Don’t get me wrong,” Jun said when he saw Nino’s dark glance. “He was always nice and sweet to me, even in more difficult times.”
“What changed between the two of you?” Nino asked.
Jun sighed. “You know what happened to me before I got together with Sho.”
Nino nodded. He felt a cold shiver running down his spine when he thought about the time after Jun had had this horrible time. “After my ex had betrayed me for years, I swore that I would never, never do that to someone else. And after he had mistreated me for months, I swore that my next relationship would be different, and that I would find someone who treats me good.”
Jun rubbed his face. “And I had found it with Sho.” Jun drank some water. He breathed out deeply. It was hard for him to talk about all of this. “But after some years of being together I felt my feelings change. I still liked him, I always did, but there was something different from before. It wasn’t love anymore. I like him, but not enough to stay in a relationship with him. I found myself being interested in someone else.”
Nino could see Jun suffer while talking. He pushed away all his thoughts and slipped next to Jun on the couch. He pulled his arm around Jun and stroked down his back. “Why didn’t you end it immediately?”
Nino could see a tear dropping down on the ground. Jun wasn’t looking at him. He stared at the carpet like he wanted to hypnotize it. After a while he looked up at Nino. “I couldn’t end it. I was so damn proud, and I thought that I had found what I longed for years ago. I had someone who took care of me, who treated me good, who loved me. But one day I couldn’t stand it anymore. I was stuck in this feeling of missing something. I went to this bar and it just happened.” Jun sobbed. “I didn’t even think about if it’s wrong what I do. I just did it. I wasn’t even drunk, it was my decision.”
“Jun,” Nino started, but got immediately interrupted.
“No, I am the worst person ever. I did what I never wanted to experience again. And I did this to my boyfriend, to the one I once loved and still liked.” Jun pointed at himself. It burdened him.
“Does it help when I tell you that Sho didn’t assault you for what you have done,” Nino said.
“No, not much,” Jun shook his head.
“You aren’t a bad person, Jun.” Nino drew some small patterns over Jun’s back. “Maybe your relationship was meant to end here. Maybe you should have ended it long before this happened?” Oh great, Nino hated himself for saying this out loud. He really should learn to keep his thoughts behind.
“You mean Sho had the same feelings?” Jun asked. Now Nino was wondering. Hadn’t Sho told Jun that he wasn’t in love with Jun anymore?
Nino just nodded. It didn’t matter if he told Jun the whole truth now. Maybe it would help Jun. “Can you please stop with these alcohol escapades, Jun?”
Jun looked at him. “Kazu.”
“No.” Nino raised his hand. “I want you to stop this self-destruction. You are such a great guy, Jun. There is no other way than loving you. You are good-hearted, sweet, caring and all over that you are good looking.”
Jun laughed at that. “Thank you, Kazu.”
Nino felt something in him clenching. He had another question, but he didn’t dare to ask it. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously, thinking about it again and again. Damn, it didn’t matter now. “Jun, you said you fell for someone else?”
Jun blinked at him. He nodded silently. Was there a blush on Jun’s face? “Yes,” Jun started. “During the years my feelings for someone changed. I think my feelings for my best friend changed from my feelings years ago.”
Nino nodded. “Who is he?”
Jun looked at him with eyes wide open. “Kazu, you have the best senses when it’s about feelings, intentions and behaviour from others. So you are kidding me now, right?”
Nino froze. He was sure that he looked like frozen when he had heard Jun’s words. “You mean…” he croaked and pointed at himself.
Jun nodded. “But you really don’t need to return …” Jun started, but Nino had already wrapped his arms around Jun and pulled him into an embrace. To hell with his own worries and thoughts of it would be alright for Sho or someone else. He had waited so long for this to happen, and he never thought that this would ever happen to them.
“I want you to stop this crap, Jun,” Nino whispered into the other one’s ear. He could feel Jun’s hands wrapping around his waist, pulling him closer.
“Okay.”
“And I want you to talk with Sho about everything. He was worried about you like hell, and he deserves a proper talk,” Nino said further.
He could feel Jun’s grip tighten. He sighed. “Okay.”
Nino let his lips roam over Jun’s neck. He breathed in the well-known Jun-like smell he loved for so long. This was too good to be true. Nino had longed for that, and it was unbelievable that it happened to him right now.
Nino could feel Jun pulling him closer till he was almost sitting on his lap. “It was the biggest burden for me to have you next to me as my friend, because my feeling of a friendship turning into something else got stronger and stronger. And I didn’t want Sho to…”
Nino dissolved a bit from the embrace. “Stop it now, Jun. I want you to clear everything with Sho and with your worries about breaking up and with everything you have done. After that we’ll talk about everything concerning us, okay?”
Jun suddenly chuckled. “When did you become so mature, Kazu?”
Nino opened his mouth and closed it again. His eyes got smaller. “You’re stupid, Jun.”
Jun laughed out. “Thank you so much for kicking my ass, Kazu. I think I’ll get out of this.”
“That sounds Jun-like.” Nino gave Jun a thumb up.
“Can I at least give you one kiss before I need to get my life back into normal again?” Jun asked, his finger brushing over Nino’s cheek.
“Oh god, yes,” Nino sighed. He had waited so long for this.
He could feel Jun’s lips brushing over his before he started to deepen the kiss. Nino felt like fireworks exploding in him. This was definitely the best feeling he had ever experienced.
~~~
Nino walked up and down in his apartment. He looked at the clock on the wall almost every second. When the door finally opened he almost jump up. “Jun,” he said.
He stopped when he saw Jun’s tear drained face. Jun looked up at him, smiling a little bit. “Is everything okay?”
Jun nodded. He took Nino’s hand and both went to the living room where they sat down. Nino didn’t know why, but he was incredibly nervous about this. Maybe he feared that Jun would break down again after talking with Sho. “It was good. We talked openly about everything, even about the not so nice things.”
Nino swallowed. “That’s good.” He slipped closer to Jun. “And you feel better now?”
Jun nodded. “I feel like a burden dropped down from me.”
“That’s really good to hear, Jun. Now you can make a step forward.” Nino brushed Jun’s cheek.
Jun nodded. He leaned closer and took Nino’s face between his hands. “Only forward, and no break down anymore.” He smiled before he left some butterfly kisses on Nino’s face.
“And now can we please make the next step in our relationship?” Jun grinned evilly.
Nino smacked Jun’s head playfully, and shrugged then. “I hoped you’d ask for it.”
Nino let himself being carried into the bedroom, and closed the door when Jun let him down again. Yes, the best time would start now.
A/N: Hello my friends, thanks so much for reading this story <3 I really hope you liked it. ^^ So Jun can start a new life now, together with Nino, who finally gets his chance :D
Next Friday I will start a loooong multi chapter <3 I hope to see you there <3