Amore motus (Matsumiya) 4/5
Title: Amore motus 3/5
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.
Nino walked up and down in front of the small coffee shop near the agency. He had left Jun’s apartment before the other had been awake. Nino didn’t want to make any explanation why he had to leave Jun’s apartment without having breakfast together. And he knew that Jun would be suspicious and immediately asking Nino out - what would lead to the end that Nino would tell him about meeting Sho, and Jun would end up mad. And that’s what Nino didn’t need right now.
He walked up and down, till he could see a well-known face appearing around the corner. “Hey, Kazu.” Sho stepped to him. “Let’s walk into the shop?” He suggested.
“Sure,” Kazu said and walked behind the other into the coffee shop. The smell of fresh made coffee and bagels made Nino’s stomach grumble. “You pay.” Nino pointed at the other. He was seriously in a bad mood.
“It’s okay,” Sho chuckled. “I am used to it already.”
Nino glanced at him. “What do you mean?”
Sho grinned and Nino hated his smile. “Oh come on, I always pay when we are out.”
“Yeah, okay, whatever,” Nino said. “I want a double chocolate coffee and a salami bagel with cucumber and cheese.”
“Sure,” Sho nodded and walked up to the counter to get their orders. Nino sat there, the nervousness in him rising. He knew that Jun was often in this area and he hoped that he wouldn’t come here today.
Nino waited till the other came back with a plate and the coffee and food on it. He sat to Nino and placed the cup in front of him. “And you bagel,” Sho said with a smile.
Nino took a bite and leaned back against his chair. “Okay, Sho-chan, and now I want to know the truth. I want to know what’s going on here.”
Sho sighed. He fought with his words. “Honestly, I don’t know what happened to us.” He looked at Nino. Sho’s eyes were tired and small. “We drifted apart during the last months, and I often had the feeling that our relationship was coming to an end, but I didn’t think that it would end with a big drama.”
“What did Jun do?” Nino wanted to know. He wasn’t interested in any details of Sho and Jun’s past relationship, because he didn’t want to hurt himself more than it was necessary.
Sho smiled at him. He seemed to understand why Nino reacted like this. “I think he didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want to end our relationship, but he wasn’t happy either. That’s what made him torn between all this. And then he did something stupid, and it made him freaking out. He started doing all these stupid things.”
It was like Sho talked about someone Nino didn’t know. This was definitely not the Jun Nino knew and loved. “That sounds so unlike Jun.”
Sho smiled sadly. “Do you know about Jun’s past before we got together?”
Nino gulped. Yes, he knew about it, but he didn’t want to think about it. Jun had once told him about his past, and Nino had listened to him, and afterwards he had decided that he would never think of this story again. “Yes.” Nino nodded. “Sho-chan, what shall we do?”
Sho tilted his head. He twisted the spoon in his cup absent-minded. “I really don’t know it.” Nino already guessed that answer, and in the end he didn’t know it either.
“Tell me one thing, Sho-chan,” Nino said and waited till the other looked at him. “Why are you so calm in this whole situation?”
“I am not calm, I am worried, Kazu. But if you talk about Jun’s mistake and the whole mess we had.” Sho made a break. It was the first time Kazu saw something sad and frustrated sparkling in Sho’s eyes. “I think I am not faultless. Our relationship was over long ago, Kazu. We were stuck in a daily routine. The both of us felt same, but no one wanted to realize it. And I think we both didn’t want to be alone.” Sho scratched his head. “Ahh, that’s all a mess.” He smiled at Nino. “But you know, I think you are more important to Jun than he believes you are.”
Nino blinked. What did Sho mean with this? Was he talking about different feelings from Jun’s side? “You mean that Jun has feelings for me?”
Sho nodded. “I am pretty sure about it, because I think that’s one of the reasons Jun freaked out.”
Nino now laughed. “I don’t know, Sho. He always says that he will never fall in love with a bandmate or a colleague again. So I don’t think that there is something more from his side.”
Sho returned the smile. “Nah, let’s see.”
Nino rolled his eyes. “Yeah, let’s see.”
~~~
Nino looked at Jun closely during the rehearsal. He tried to act like always, but it was clearly visible that there was something strange, and Nino was sure that even the staff had already realized that there was something wrong.
“Hey, Kazu, I need to talk with you,” Aiba whispered during a small break.
Nino looked at his friend. Oh no, that was nothing nice Aiba wanted to tell him. “Okay, let’s go outside to get us a coffee from the vending machine.”
They walked down the corridor and stopped at the blinking machine. Nino took some coins and got himself a hot coffee. “What happened Masaki?” He asked after a big sip of his hot liquid.
Aiba sighed. “Jun,” he started. “He goes on my nerves with you as main topic. And he destroys something else for me with his actions.”
Nino could see Aiba blushing. Oh, oh, oh…Aiba was in love, Nino knew this face he had right now. “Who is he?” Nino poked Aiba’s side.
“It doesn’t matter,” Aiba chuckled nervously. “It’s just that it’s … I don’t know … you know … it destroys everything for me … somehow … you know …” he stuttered.
Nino laughed out loud. He patted Aiba’s shoulder. “Stop it, Masaki. It’s okay, I will clear things up, but tell me, who it is.”
Aiba nibbled on his lower lip. “It’s Kame-chan. We meet each other one month now, but he gets a little bit worried because of this Jun thing, and I can’t tell him the truth, so I am stuck in finding excuses.”
Nino squealed. “Oh god, Masaki, that’s great.” He stepped closer and hugged his friend. He felt happy for Aiba. At least one of them should be happy.
“Okay, okay, Kazu,” Aiba laughed. “Let’s go back to the others before he start missing us.”
Nino nodded. “I am really happy for you, Masaki,” he said before they walked back.
They reached the rehearsing room, and Nino could see Jun standing at the window, looking outside. Nino looked at Aiba and nodded. He walked up to Jun and waited till Aiba was back in the rehearsing room, leaving them alone.
“Hey, Jun,” Nino said. “Is everything okay?”
Jun turned to him. “Yes, everything okay.” He turned to Nino. “You and Masaki look good together.”
Damn, now Nino had to say something. He needed to clear things up now. “Listen, Jun. About that.” Nino shifted on his place. He put his hands in his pockets and leaned next to Jun. “I am not interested in Masaki this way.”
Jun blinked at him. “What do you mean?”
Nino smiled. “Masaki is my friend, I love him as friend, but there is nothing more between us.” He scanned Jun’s face, but he wasn’t sure which kind of feelings he could see there.
“Why did you say that you like him?” Jun wanted to know.
Oh god, now Nino had to say something, but he couldn’t be honest right now, couldn’t he? What would happen if he’d tell Jun the truth? There was so much sadness and so many problems appearing in Jun’s eyes.
Nino feared that Jun would draw back when he’d confess to him, and he feared that everything would become worse. No, he couldn’t say something, it was just impossible.
“Hello? Kazu?” Jun waved his hand in front of Nino’s face.
He shook his head. “I am sorry Jun, I was a little absent-minded.” He turned to Jun. “I don’t know why I told you this. There is no one in my life right now.” He felt his stomach clenching.
Jun smiled at him. Were there sad wrinkles around Jun’s lips? “I want to go out tonight, do you want to accompany me?” Jun asked. Oh no, Nino didn’t want to go out. He hated it to go to bars and clubs. But maybe it was the best to go with Jun, otherwise he would start doing stupid things again, and Nino would never forgive himself if something would happen to Jun.
“Okay, I am in, but you owe me a beer or two if I join,” Nino sighed.
Jun laughed. “Typically Kazu.” He poked Nino’s side. “Always scrounge something from others.”
Nino pricked out his tongue. “Maybe you need to pay me three beers.”
“Oh okay.” Jun raised his hands. “I stop now before I end up with ten beers I owe you.”
Nino smiled. For a second Jun looked happy and for just one moment everything seemed to be alright. It was the old Jun Nino loved so much. There was no worry, no sadness and no anger in him. It was just the smiling, happy Jun Nino wanted to have back so badly.
But with one step back into the rehearsal room, Jun’s mood changed and everything was like it had been before. Slowly Nino feared that Jun would never change again.
~~~
“And,” Jun giggled. He raised his hand and pointed at Nino, who felt already pretty bad. Jun had drunken far too much, and Nino wasn’t able to prevent it. Jun was a strong character and he didn’t listen to others if he had a certain wish or plan. “Everything sucks,” Jun laughed out.
“Jun,” Kazu said carefully. “Don’t you think it’s time to go home?”
“No, no, no,” Jun said. “We drink another one, Kazu.”
Nino sighed. “It’s enough Jun, really.” He took the bottle from Jun’s hand, but he took it back from Nino immediately.
“No, it’s not.” Jun sounded like a little child. “I need it.”
“Jun.” Nino leaned forward. “You don’t need alcohol and I don’t know what else to be happy.”
Jun snorted. “Happy?” He took a big sip from his beer. “I won’t be happy ever again.”
Nino felt his heart beat rising. “Come.” He pulled Jun up to the bathroom. He took Jun’s hands and held it under the cold water while he splashed some more water on Jun’s face.
Jun yelled out and tried to get his hands free. “Are you a little bit more sober now?” Jun glanced at Nino. “Okay, the way you look at me tells me that you are at least not in a total drunken attitude anymore.”
“What do you want, Kazu?” Jun huffed. Oh great, now Jun was angry.
“I want you to stop telling me that you won’t be happy again in your life, because that’s nonsense,” Nino said.
Jun leaned against the wall. “I hate my life, Kazu.”
Nino stepped closer and took Jun’s arm till he could feel Jun’s body against his. Nino placed his hands around Jun and pulled him into an embrace. Soon he could feel Jun sobbing into his neck, but he couldn’t care less about that right now.
A/N: So we know that something happened to Jun, but what? And Sho is sure that Jun feels something for Nino?
There is only one chapter to go, so let's see what will happen in the end. ;)
Pairing: Matsumoto Jun/ Ninomiya Kazunari; past Matsumoto Jun/ Sakurai Sho
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: When Jun breaks up with Sho, it’s Nino who’s there for him. There is just one thing Jun doesn’t know: Nino is in love with him.
Note: Written for
lilly0 <3 I really hope you like it. I wanted to write something different this time, so I took Matsumiya, I hope that’s okay for you.
Nino walked up and down in front of the small coffee shop near the agency. He had left Jun’s apartment before the other had been awake. Nino didn’t want to make any explanation why he had to leave Jun’s apartment without having breakfast together. And he knew that Jun would be suspicious and immediately asking Nino out - what would lead to the end that Nino would tell him about meeting Sho, and Jun would end up mad. And that’s what Nino didn’t need right now.
He walked up and down, till he could see a well-known face appearing around the corner. “Hey, Kazu.” Sho stepped to him. “Let’s walk into the shop?” He suggested.
“Sure,” Kazu said and walked behind the other into the coffee shop. The smell of fresh made coffee and bagels made Nino’s stomach grumble. “You pay.” Nino pointed at the other. He was seriously in a bad mood.
“It’s okay,” Sho chuckled. “I am used to it already.”
Nino glanced at him. “What do you mean?”
Sho grinned and Nino hated his smile. “Oh come on, I always pay when we are out.”
“Yeah, okay, whatever,” Nino said. “I want a double chocolate coffee and a salami bagel with cucumber and cheese.”
“Sure,” Sho nodded and walked up to the counter to get their orders. Nino sat there, the nervousness in him rising. He knew that Jun was often in this area and he hoped that he wouldn’t come here today.
Nino waited till the other came back with a plate and the coffee and food on it. He sat to Nino and placed the cup in front of him. “And you bagel,” Sho said with a smile.
Nino took a bite and leaned back against his chair. “Okay, Sho-chan, and now I want to know the truth. I want to know what’s going on here.”
Sho sighed. He fought with his words. “Honestly, I don’t know what happened to us.” He looked at Nino. Sho’s eyes were tired and small. “We drifted apart during the last months, and I often had the feeling that our relationship was coming to an end, but I didn’t think that it would end with a big drama.”
“What did Jun do?” Nino wanted to know. He wasn’t interested in any details of Sho and Jun’s past relationship, because he didn’t want to hurt himself more than it was necessary.
Sho smiled at him. He seemed to understand why Nino reacted like this. “I think he didn’t know what to do. He didn’t want to end our relationship, but he wasn’t happy either. That’s what made him torn between all this. And then he did something stupid, and it made him freaking out. He started doing all these stupid things.”
It was like Sho talked about someone Nino didn’t know. This was definitely not the Jun Nino knew and loved. “That sounds so unlike Jun.”
Sho smiled sadly. “Do you know about Jun’s past before we got together?”
Nino gulped. Yes, he knew about it, but he didn’t want to think about it. Jun had once told him about his past, and Nino had listened to him, and afterwards he had decided that he would never think of this story again. “Yes.” Nino nodded. “Sho-chan, what shall we do?”
Sho tilted his head. He twisted the spoon in his cup absent-minded. “I really don’t know it.” Nino already guessed that answer, and in the end he didn’t know it either.
“Tell me one thing, Sho-chan,” Nino said and waited till the other looked at him. “Why are you so calm in this whole situation?”
“I am not calm, I am worried, Kazu. But if you talk about Jun’s mistake and the whole mess we had.” Sho made a break. It was the first time Kazu saw something sad and frustrated sparkling in Sho’s eyes. “I think I am not faultless. Our relationship was over long ago, Kazu. We were stuck in a daily routine. The both of us felt same, but no one wanted to realize it. And I think we both didn’t want to be alone.” Sho scratched his head. “Ahh, that’s all a mess.” He smiled at Nino. “But you know, I think you are more important to Jun than he believes you are.”
Nino blinked. What did Sho mean with this? Was he talking about different feelings from Jun’s side? “You mean that Jun has feelings for me?”
Sho nodded. “I am pretty sure about it, because I think that’s one of the reasons Jun freaked out.”
Nino now laughed. “I don’t know, Sho. He always says that he will never fall in love with a bandmate or a colleague again. So I don’t think that there is something more from his side.”
Sho returned the smile. “Nah, let’s see.”
Nino rolled his eyes. “Yeah, let’s see.”
~~~
Nino looked at Jun closely during the rehearsal. He tried to act like always, but it was clearly visible that there was something strange, and Nino was sure that even the staff had already realized that there was something wrong.
“Hey, Kazu, I need to talk with you,” Aiba whispered during a small break.
Nino looked at his friend. Oh no, that was nothing nice Aiba wanted to tell him. “Okay, let’s go outside to get us a coffee from the vending machine.”
They walked down the corridor and stopped at the blinking machine. Nino took some coins and got himself a hot coffee. “What happened Masaki?” He asked after a big sip of his hot liquid.
Aiba sighed. “Jun,” he started. “He goes on my nerves with you as main topic. And he destroys something else for me with his actions.”
Nino could see Aiba blushing. Oh, oh, oh…Aiba was in love, Nino knew this face he had right now. “Who is he?” Nino poked Aiba’s side.
“It doesn’t matter,” Aiba chuckled nervously. “It’s just that it’s … I don’t know … you know … it destroys everything for me … somehow … you know …” he stuttered.
Nino laughed out loud. He patted Aiba’s shoulder. “Stop it, Masaki. It’s okay, I will clear things up, but tell me, who it is.”
Aiba nibbled on his lower lip. “It’s Kame-chan. We meet each other one month now, but he gets a little bit worried because of this Jun thing, and I can’t tell him the truth, so I am stuck in finding excuses.”
Nino squealed. “Oh god, Masaki, that’s great.” He stepped closer and hugged his friend. He felt happy for Aiba. At least one of them should be happy.
“Okay, okay, Kazu,” Aiba laughed. “Let’s go back to the others before he start missing us.”
Nino nodded. “I am really happy for you, Masaki,” he said before they walked back.
They reached the rehearsing room, and Nino could see Jun standing at the window, looking outside. Nino looked at Aiba and nodded. He walked up to Jun and waited till Aiba was back in the rehearsing room, leaving them alone.
“Hey, Jun,” Nino said. “Is everything okay?”
Jun turned to him. “Yes, everything okay.” He turned to Nino. “You and Masaki look good together.”
Damn, now Nino had to say something. He needed to clear things up now. “Listen, Jun. About that.” Nino shifted on his place. He put his hands in his pockets and leaned next to Jun. “I am not interested in Masaki this way.”
Jun blinked at him. “What do you mean?”
Nino smiled. “Masaki is my friend, I love him as friend, but there is nothing more between us.” He scanned Jun’s face, but he wasn’t sure which kind of feelings he could see there.
“Why did you say that you like him?” Jun wanted to know.
Oh god, now Nino had to say something, but he couldn’t be honest right now, couldn’t he? What would happen if he’d tell Jun the truth? There was so much sadness and so many problems appearing in Jun’s eyes.
Nino feared that Jun would draw back when he’d confess to him, and he feared that everything would become worse. No, he couldn’t say something, it was just impossible.
“Hello? Kazu?” Jun waved his hand in front of Nino’s face.
He shook his head. “I am sorry Jun, I was a little absent-minded.” He turned to Jun. “I don’t know why I told you this. There is no one in my life right now.” He felt his stomach clenching.
Jun smiled at him. Were there sad wrinkles around Jun’s lips? “I want to go out tonight, do you want to accompany me?” Jun asked. Oh no, Nino didn’t want to go out. He hated it to go to bars and clubs. But maybe it was the best to go with Jun, otherwise he would start doing stupid things again, and Nino would never forgive himself if something would happen to Jun.
“Okay, I am in, but you owe me a beer or two if I join,” Nino sighed.
Jun laughed. “Typically Kazu.” He poked Nino’s side. “Always scrounge something from others.”
Nino pricked out his tongue. “Maybe you need to pay me three beers.”
“Oh okay.” Jun raised his hands. “I stop now before I end up with ten beers I owe you.”
Nino smiled. For a second Jun looked happy and for just one moment everything seemed to be alright. It was the old Jun Nino loved so much. There was no worry, no sadness and no anger in him. It was just the smiling, happy Jun Nino wanted to have back so badly.
But with one step back into the rehearsal room, Jun’s mood changed and everything was like it had been before. Slowly Nino feared that Jun would never change again.
~~~
“And,” Jun giggled. He raised his hand and pointed at Nino, who felt already pretty bad. Jun had drunken far too much, and Nino wasn’t able to prevent it. Jun was a strong character and he didn’t listen to others if he had a certain wish or plan. “Everything sucks,” Jun laughed out.
“Jun,” Kazu said carefully. “Don’t you think it’s time to go home?”
“No, no, no,” Jun said. “We drink another one, Kazu.”
Nino sighed. “It’s enough Jun, really.” He took the bottle from Jun’s hand, but he took it back from Nino immediately.
“No, it’s not.” Jun sounded like a little child. “I need it.”
“Jun.” Nino leaned forward. “You don’t need alcohol and I don’t know what else to be happy.”
Jun snorted. “Happy?” He took a big sip from his beer. “I won’t be happy ever again.”
Nino felt his heart beat rising. “Come.” He pulled Jun up to the bathroom. He took Jun’s hands and held it under the cold water while he splashed some more water on Jun’s face.
Jun yelled out and tried to get his hands free. “Are you a little bit more sober now?” Jun glanced at Nino. “Okay, the way you look at me tells me that you are at least not in a total drunken attitude anymore.”
“What do you want, Kazu?” Jun huffed. Oh great, now Jun was angry.
“I want you to stop telling me that you won’t be happy again in your life, because that’s nonsense,” Nino said.
Jun leaned against the wall. “I hate my life, Kazu.”
Nino stepped closer and took Jun’s arm till he could feel Jun’s body against his. Nino placed his hands around Jun and pulled him into an embrace. Soon he could feel Jun sobbing into his neck, but he couldn’t care less about that right now.
A/N: So we know that something happened to Jun, but what? And Sho is sure that Jun feels something for Nino?
There is only one chapter to go, so let's see what will happen in the end. ;)