Behind the waves Chapter 12
Title: Behind the waves
Pairing: Aiba Masaki/ Sakurai Sho; Matsumoto Jun/ Ohno Satoshi;
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: Aiba has a special ability - he can see shadows surrounding people who can’t get rid of their past and what had happened to them and the people they once loved. As psychologist it’s Aiba’s duty to help them getting rid of their bad experiences (and their shadows) to start a new life.
“Let’s go.” Sho walked up to the coffee shop on the other side of the mall. He walked fast and the others had trouble following him.
“What the hell was this?” Nino whispered at Jun, who walked between Nino and Aiba.
“I have no idea. He didn’t say her name out loud since …,” Jun stopped talking. Maybe he wasn’t allowed to say something, or he respected Sho’s privacy too much to tell anyone about Sho’s life. Probably it was a mixture of both.
“Shall I try talking with him?” Aiba wanted to know. He knew it was probably senseless, because Sho had never opened up to anyone, but maybe it was worth a try. They made some steps forward during the last weeks, so maybe he could break through the wall.
“I don’t think that he’ll talk to anyone. Just get our coffees and talk about, I don’t know, the weather?” Jun suggested.
“That won’t make anything better,” Aiba said. “He should open up, not bottle everything up inside.”
“It’s not that easy,” Jun sighed. “You don’t know how often I’ve tried to make him talk about what burdens him, but he is so closed, it’s impossible to get through his walls.”
“Is your relationship alright again?” Aiba wanted to know. After Jun had had the fight with Sho, he had never talked about it again, and Aiba didn’t want to ask. When Sho had told him that Jun would go along with him, Aiba had wondered about it.
“It’s never alright, Aiba. But I guess we are both masters in pushing our thoughts and feelings to the side and do like nothing had ever happened between us. We do this since we had been children,” Jun explained. “It had never been a matter of talking with each other, and I think it would feel ridiculous if we start it right now. We are both not used to it.”
“But you are able to talk openly with Ohno-kun?” Aiba asked.
Jun smiled at him. “It’s something different.” He shrugged. “Sometimes it’s also hard to talk with Oh-chan about certain things.” Jun looked at Aiba. “But yes, you are right, it’s easier to talk with Ohno about things than talking with Sho about it.”
“They are really different, aren’t they?” Aiba asked. He knew he was talking like the therapist again, but he couldn’t change that. He had always been like this.
Nino glanced at him, visibly annoyed about Aiba’s questions. He knew he’d had to listen to a bunch of probably not so nice words from Nino later on. Leave the work at home - that’s what Nino always said, but it wasn’t that easy for Aiba.
Jun shook his head. “You might think that way, but they have more similarities you might guess. They are both pretty closed and probably a mess inside. They are both really bad in handling problems, and instead of searching for help and talking about everything, they lock themselves. The only difference is that Ohno is the one who suffers in complete silence, while Sho is the one who starts yelling around. He’s the one who gets unfair to others, just because he is not content with his life.”
Aiba looked at Sho, who walked a few meters in front of them. He didn’t look back, but Aiba wasn’t sure if he really didn’t hear what Jun had said. Aiba tilted his head. The small shadow hovered behind Sho, gripping his leg. “Papa, stop. Turn around. Listen to them. Listen to this tall guy. He knows how to help you.”
Aiba smiled. Somehow he liked this little girl, even though she pulled on his energy. “Hey, Sho-san,” Aiba said. The other turned to him, his cheeks rosy. Aiba hurried up to him. Nino and Jun stayed behind a little. Maybe they thought they should keep away from them because Aiba would like to talk with Sho as his therapist, and yeah … they were right.
“What, Aiba-san?” Sho sounded unfriendly. Maybe he feared that Aiba would ask about this name, but Aiba didn’t need to ask. He knew that it was this little girl, he didn’t need to know anything further for now.
“I wanted to thank you for the selfie you sent me yesterday. I completely forgot about answering you. I had some health troubles and so I forgot about it,” Aiba said with a smile.
“Oh, no problem,” Sho said nervously.
“Where have you taken the picture?” Aiba wanted to know. In the background of the picture had been a tall tree with the sea next to it.
Sho tilted his head. “It’s up on the small mountain, you know on the other side of the town, down there where the street ends in this beautiful field with flowers.” He put his hands in his pockets. “It’s one of my favourite places. You have a nice overview and it’s calm over there. I am able to let my dog run free and enjoy some time without people around me.”
Aiba nodded. Maybe he and Sho weren’t that different after all - just that their reasons for wanting to be alone were different. “It’s really a nice picture. I wanted to thank you for taking your exercise earnest.”
Sho bowed. “No problem.”
~~~
They sat in the coffee shop looking at each other. The mood was still strange, even though they didn’t talk about Sho’s outburst of the child’s name anymore.
“What do you plan on weekend?” Nino asked no one in particular. He just wanted the conversation to go on.
“I’ll need to make some shopping, but the rest of the time I’ll stay at home,” Aiba smiled.
Sho twisted the spoon in his cup. “I don’t know by now. Maybe I’ll go for a short trip to the mountain. I have a friend here.”
Jun laughed. “You don’t talk about one of us, right? Because I don’t think we are the persons who love climbing a mountain, especially when there are 30 degree outside.”
“No,” Sho said, shaking his head. “It’s an old school friend. Maybe I ask him to guide me to the top with some beer and some sandwiches.”
Something in Aiba clenched. He hated himself for this feeling of jealousy rising in him. There was no reason to feel like this, because there was nothing going on between him and Sho. “Sounds nice,” Aiba just said. “Don’t forget the selfies.”
Sho nodded at him. “I will take some pictures.”
Aiba could feel Nino’s eyes resting on him. And he knew that sight. It was Nino’s ‘are you insane’ look. “And you Jun-kun?” Aiba tried to put the focus on the other.
“Oh, I need to work, but I think me and Oh-chan will stay at home in the evenings,” Jun said. It really seemed to get better between them.
“Oh, talking about Ohno, he’s calling right now,” Jun excused and stood up to leave the coffee shop.
Aiba heard Nino and Sho talking about various things, but he couldn’t concentrate, his focus was on Jun, who ran up and down in front of the shop nervously, his phone in his hands. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously. That didn’t mean something good.
“What’s going on out there?” Sho asked, looking at Jun. “I hope they don’t fight again.”
Aiba looked at Sho. He had to smile a bit when he saw Sho’s eyes. He cared about Jun’s happiness, but he was so stuck in his problems, that he couldn’t show it to the other. But these eyes told more than every word Sho could use. “I am sure everything is okay,” Aiba said.
“I will go and look after him.” Nino stood up and left the room.
“You have some major problems with your brother, right? But you care about him, I can see it in your eyes,” Aiba said.
Sho laughed out. “What, are you a visionary?” He twisted the cup nervously. Aiba pulled one eyebrow up. Sho rolled his eyes and sighed. “Yes, you are right, I care about him, but we are stuck in old patterns and I don’t know how to overcome it.”
“I am always right,” Aiba giggled. He wanted to lighten the mood between them, because he already felt Sho tensing up again.
“Oh, yes, I forgot, sorry, Master Aiba-san,” Sho laughed. Aiba loved that smile, but it was far too rare. Aiba would do everything to change that though.
“What happened that you got stuck in this situation?” Aiba asked.
Sho leaned back, his hands rubbing his face. “Man, you never stop being a therapist.”
“Nope.” Aiba shook his head with a smile.
He looked at Aiba. There was a sad sparkle in Sho’s eyes. “It happened so long ago.”
A/N: Hello everyone, I had to make a break last week, because I needed to learn, but I am done with writing the story now, so I can post it till the end, every week from now on :D We have only a few chapters left, so what do you think? What will happen? Any suggestions?
I think there will come some twists you don't count with ;) *evillaugh*
So let's see....
Pairing: Aiba Masaki/ Sakurai Sho; Matsumoto Jun/ Ohno Satoshi;
Rating: PG-13
Warning: none
Summary: Aiba has a special ability - he can see shadows surrounding people who can’t get rid of their past and what had happened to them and the people they once loved. As psychologist it’s Aiba’s duty to help them getting rid of their bad experiences (and their shadows) to start a new life.
“Let’s go.” Sho walked up to the coffee shop on the other side of the mall. He walked fast and the others had trouble following him.
“What the hell was this?” Nino whispered at Jun, who walked between Nino and Aiba.
“I have no idea. He didn’t say her name out loud since …,” Jun stopped talking. Maybe he wasn’t allowed to say something, or he respected Sho’s privacy too much to tell anyone about Sho’s life. Probably it was a mixture of both.
“Shall I try talking with him?” Aiba wanted to know. He knew it was probably senseless, because Sho had never opened up to anyone, but maybe it was worth a try. They made some steps forward during the last weeks, so maybe he could break through the wall.
“I don’t think that he’ll talk to anyone. Just get our coffees and talk about, I don’t know, the weather?” Jun suggested.
“That won’t make anything better,” Aiba said. “He should open up, not bottle everything up inside.”
“It’s not that easy,” Jun sighed. “You don’t know how often I’ve tried to make him talk about what burdens him, but he is so closed, it’s impossible to get through his walls.”
“Is your relationship alright again?” Aiba wanted to know. After Jun had had the fight with Sho, he had never talked about it again, and Aiba didn’t want to ask. When Sho had told him that Jun would go along with him, Aiba had wondered about it.
“It’s never alright, Aiba. But I guess we are both masters in pushing our thoughts and feelings to the side and do like nothing had ever happened between us. We do this since we had been children,” Jun explained. “It had never been a matter of talking with each other, and I think it would feel ridiculous if we start it right now. We are both not used to it.”
“But you are able to talk openly with Ohno-kun?” Aiba asked.
Jun smiled at him. “It’s something different.” He shrugged. “Sometimes it’s also hard to talk with Oh-chan about certain things.” Jun looked at Aiba. “But yes, you are right, it’s easier to talk with Ohno about things than talking with Sho about it.”
“They are really different, aren’t they?” Aiba asked. He knew he was talking like the therapist again, but he couldn’t change that. He had always been like this.
Nino glanced at him, visibly annoyed about Aiba’s questions. He knew he’d had to listen to a bunch of probably not so nice words from Nino later on. Leave the work at home - that’s what Nino always said, but it wasn’t that easy for Aiba.
Jun shook his head. “You might think that way, but they have more similarities you might guess. They are both pretty closed and probably a mess inside. They are both really bad in handling problems, and instead of searching for help and talking about everything, they lock themselves. The only difference is that Ohno is the one who suffers in complete silence, while Sho is the one who starts yelling around. He’s the one who gets unfair to others, just because he is not content with his life.”
Aiba looked at Sho, who walked a few meters in front of them. He didn’t look back, but Aiba wasn’t sure if he really didn’t hear what Jun had said. Aiba tilted his head. The small shadow hovered behind Sho, gripping his leg. “Papa, stop. Turn around. Listen to them. Listen to this tall guy. He knows how to help you.”
Aiba smiled. Somehow he liked this little girl, even though she pulled on his energy. “Hey, Sho-san,” Aiba said. The other turned to him, his cheeks rosy. Aiba hurried up to him. Nino and Jun stayed behind a little. Maybe they thought they should keep away from them because Aiba would like to talk with Sho as his therapist, and yeah … they were right.
“What, Aiba-san?” Sho sounded unfriendly. Maybe he feared that Aiba would ask about this name, but Aiba didn’t need to ask. He knew that it was this little girl, he didn’t need to know anything further for now.
“I wanted to thank you for the selfie you sent me yesterday. I completely forgot about answering you. I had some health troubles and so I forgot about it,” Aiba said with a smile.
“Oh, no problem,” Sho said nervously.
“Where have you taken the picture?” Aiba wanted to know. In the background of the picture had been a tall tree with the sea next to it.
Sho tilted his head. “It’s up on the small mountain, you know on the other side of the town, down there where the street ends in this beautiful field with flowers.” He put his hands in his pockets. “It’s one of my favourite places. You have a nice overview and it’s calm over there. I am able to let my dog run free and enjoy some time without people around me.”
Aiba nodded. Maybe he and Sho weren’t that different after all - just that their reasons for wanting to be alone were different. “It’s really a nice picture. I wanted to thank you for taking your exercise earnest.”
Sho bowed. “No problem.”
~~~
They sat in the coffee shop looking at each other. The mood was still strange, even though they didn’t talk about Sho’s outburst of the child’s name anymore.
“What do you plan on weekend?” Nino asked no one in particular. He just wanted the conversation to go on.
“I’ll need to make some shopping, but the rest of the time I’ll stay at home,” Aiba smiled.
Sho twisted the spoon in his cup. “I don’t know by now. Maybe I’ll go for a short trip to the mountain. I have a friend here.”
Jun laughed. “You don’t talk about one of us, right? Because I don’t think we are the persons who love climbing a mountain, especially when there are 30 degree outside.”
“No,” Sho said, shaking his head. “It’s an old school friend. Maybe I ask him to guide me to the top with some beer and some sandwiches.”
Something in Aiba clenched. He hated himself for this feeling of jealousy rising in him. There was no reason to feel like this, because there was nothing going on between him and Sho. “Sounds nice,” Aiba just said. “Don’t forget the selfies.”
Sho nodded at him. “I will take some pictures.”
Aiba could feel Nino’s eyes resting on him. And he knew that sight. It was Nino’s ‘are you insane’ look. “And you Jun-kun?” Aiba tried to put the focus on the other.
“Oh, I need to work, but I think me and Oh-chan will stay at home in the evenings,” Jun said. It really seemed to get better between them.
“Oh, talking about Ohno, he’s calling right now,” Jun excused and stood up to leave the coffee shop.
Aiba heard Nino and Sho talking about various things, but he couldn’t concentrate, his focus was on Jun, who ran up and down in front of the shop nervously, his phone in his hands. He nibbled on his lower lip nervously. That didn’t mean something good.
“What’s going on out there?” Sho asked, looking at Jun. “I hope they don’t fight again.”
Aiba looked at Sho. He had to smile a bit when he saw Sho’s eyes. He cared about Jun’s happiness, but he was so stuck in his problems, that he couldn’t show it to the other. But these eyes told more than every word Sho could use. “I am sure everything is okay,” Aiba said.
“I will go and look after him.” Nino stood up and left the room.
“You have some major problems with your brother, right? But you care about him, I can see it in your eyes,” Aiba said.
Sho laughed out. “What, are you a visionary?” He twisted the cup nervously. Aiba pulled one eyebrow up. Sho rolled his eyes and sighed. “Yes, you are right, I care about him, but we are stuck in old patterns and I don’t know how to overcome it.”
“I am always right,” Aiba giggled. He wanted to lighten the mood between them, because he already felt Sho tensing up again.
“Oh, yes, I forgot, sorry, Master Aiba-san,” Sho laughed. Aiba loved that smile, but it was far too rare. Aiba would do everything to change that though.
“What happened that you got stuck in this situation?” Aiba asked.
Sho leaned back, his hands rubbing his face. “Man, you never stop being a therapist.”
“Nope.” Aiba shook his head with a smile.
He looked at Aiba. There was a sad sparkle in Sho’s eyes. “It happened so long ago.”
A/N: Hello everyone, I had to make a break last week, because I needed to learn, but I am done with writing the story now, so I can post it till the end, every week from now on :D We have only a few chapters left, so what do you think? What will happen? Any suggestions?
I think there will come some twists you don't count with ;) *evillaugh*
So let's see....