Lord Why?

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Well lets see where can I start. I didnt make tha team, mom is always on my ass and then some other bullshit about me telling on someone when I had no part in tha damn DRAMA with Jermine. Seems like theres no hope for me nomore. So fuck it Iam tired of this shit all tha time. I feel like I didnt make tha fucken baseball team cause Keedy dont like me. But why would you pick someone that sucks ass that you like that want play a goddamn day on tha field, then not pick someone that is good even tho you dont like them and would play too why? Thats what I hate about our damn school. You have to be so great with everyone and everything to make a damn team. But all I got to say about it is FUCK YALL, I KNOW IAM GOOD AND SO DOES ALOT OF OTHER PPL SO FUCK YALL FUCKERS. Now on tha DRAMA thing dealing with Jermine. Why would I tell on one of my great friends, thats not me and alot of people know Iam not a damn snich ok. And on tha AD thing is bullshit thats all I got to say about it. Well I dont know where it ends cause it all keeps coming at me. And yeah my bro is gone after January 24th on my birthday my brother is leaven to go to Iraq. Thanks for tha B-Day present god. And god I got a question to ask. Please help me out Iam tired of all this shit lord, does it ever come to an end? I guess not cause its me Matt just some guy at Morimer Jordan High School that lives in Morris that is about to be 17 and still dont have a car, and tha one people know as from tha pass as a bad guy are something and people dont know how bad I really do hurt from that. If they only know tha real me they would probally like me better, but no one gives that nice careing Matt a try. O and god, Why do we have to suffer for tha past and as whlie as tha present? Can god are someone tell me these things I just want to know something. I feel like Iam walken down a road to tha mild of nowhere. God why do I always feel like this? All Iam asken is for you to help me are show me that you care, just some sign lord please. Just let me know you havent lost hope in me, cause it seems Ive losted hope in myself and everyone around me. Lord just look at me it anit hard to tell Iam nothing without my family, friends ,and sports thats all I got. And it seems like Iam losting all of them. And tha most inportant thing I really do have is my family, but look at that to. I hate to say it but its going out that window too cause after January I might never see my brother again, if he was to die the only time I would see him again is at his burying. And god WHAT THA HELL DID I DO? I dont see why I have all this on me at tha age of 16. Iam depressed and stressed out at tha age of 16! I know many of my friends are just as bad. God why?
What did we do? We love you so much but sometimes I ask myself do you still love us? Look what you have given us at theses times, friends fighting over he said she said bull shit, people telling other people they want to kick there ass cause they heard something you said that you didnt, you gave us a WAR, partents that dont understand there kids no more, and then you got people kill eachother everyday over something stupid, then you got people fighting in sports you cant even play a basketball game wihtout someone getting hurt are in a fight, and then you got kids and moms and dads fighting everynight why lord?. LORD JUST TELL ME WHY MAN? Lord dont get me worry you are tha worlds greatest and I know that and so does alot of people, but just talk to me lord are give me a sign are just bring me some better days thats all I wish and ask for if thats not to hard PLEASE.