hey let's post something fun....¿ lol idk
hmmmm, ok, readyyyy.......*leaps out of curtain*
TA DA!!!!!!!!!
sorry. a teensy bit bored, I guess. Summer's going by a bit sloooOOoooOOoowly at the moment, I think it's becuase Im waiting for someone to call me about a job, dammit lol.
So, umma, NO! Bad Adrienne! srry.
Hey, Yeah, I talked to Jim the other day, like, a while ago now actually lol, and laid it on the line for him. I tried to tell him about how to me it seemed like he wasn't aware that there was a friendship to save there ( a good one too dammit, or at least, it used to be :'( :-/ ) and he wasn't trying to help at all, he was just trying to be my boyfriend again, which duh, isn't good, becuase I have a boyfriend right now, and I really really like him (ask me about that another time, it's weird even to me), and aside from that, Jim's not trustworthy in the least, so theres a lose lose situation there for him, which how many times did I try to explain in that damn notebook? I was even all specific then, I gave examples, straight out answers, always truthful, but nooooo Heaven forbid Adrienne want a little space from the whole big mess, because you know, having you're first boyfriend ever when you were a non-believer before and had avoided it for years flat out lie to you for 6 months about something that is strangely very important to you, no that doesn't fuck with a girl's mind, not at all. So I told Jim all this and I asked him, am I wrong, I mean, are you going to defend yourself, or give me a compromise, which honestly I was expecting. I was thinking that this would end in a deal or something, like, he'd behave and do what I asked for once and we wouldn't hang out alone or anything. Is it sad to say he was always a jerk, stereotypically, when we were alone, or, well, no, he was plenty jerky enough when Car was over that day, and when his cousins were over that other time, so, scratch that. Mostly when we're alone.
But no, he just sighed and said Why??? and was practically crying, and you know what, damn him, that worked way better on giving me the guilt trip than anything else he could have done, but I just said sorry, and hung up. It was hard at first, I'm ashamed to admit, but everytime I wanted to call him, all I had to do was think about the last few conversations we'd had when I was looking for someone to cheer me up. He just went on a rant about how if he was my boyfriend again, or why wasn't I calling my boyfriend about it, or finding some way to make me feel bad about Tom, and just, grr not good. He made me cry one night. Ergo, Im not speaking with the kid, and it's gotten easier, because I have my Carla darling and My Girls =) =p and Tom lol.
You know I wrote all this is my paper Journal too, or, well most of it, but im repeating it here. That's ok, the only people who look ehre anymore are probably the occasional Car or Liss or Sam and they know all this, or well, the important parts in between all the rambling. It's the rambling thats making me feel better, and the typing, actually. Writing usually soothes me, so this isn't abnormal.
lets see what else should the world know about me?
I went to Albany for a random shopping trip with the Pauli girls and my mum. That was insanly fun, actually, for shopping leastways. I tried on a dress and a skirt, are we scared yet? I actually bought one, but Im not telling which one, or why :-p Shhhhh! It's a surprise and it goes back to I really like the boyfriend I have now, it's rather scary actually, not to mention I'm spoiled with GREAT guys, or at least the last two. (((of a whole whopping 3)) but he goes away in september and after that, Im thinking I'm gonna lay low for a while, take a nice break, with no Rank breathing down my neck (that's Jim, Jim Rank), and no age old crush popping up and making me like him back (he's so cute with Celesta now lol, even though they're kinda...hmmm, lets not go there, cute is putting it mildly?) and no really cute & nice senoirs. *sigh of relief* sounds like a vacation that i have a unsettling feeling won't last long because I have this guy karma thing going on idk. I could be wrong. And i cant help but notice that Carla is missing her romance, and Im well, Im certainly not anxious to get away from it (see above about happiness with current b.f.) but i'd be content with a little quiet, is all. Fat chance with flowers on my table from Mike R. but it was very sweet of him. idk, I dont really want to think of the future, because summer's ending and, I dont want it too =( lol. Think about it c'mon. Summer ends and no (1) Darien Lake even though we're going once (2) random Mission impossible and skygazeing awesome ness (3) most importantly, CarlaCake!! =( =o ! (4) 2nd most importantly, Tom =( (5) lazing about all day lol and there will be classes, school, drama, friends though,w hich is good though.
well I think Im done, gosh this is long lol.
TA DA!!!!!!!!!
sorry. a teensy bit bored, I guess. Summer's going by a bit sloooOOoooOOoowly at the moment, I think it's becuase Im waiting for someone to call me about a job, dammit lol.
So, umma, NO! Bad Adrienne! srry.
Hey, Yeah, I talked to Jim the other day, like, a while ago now actually lol, and laid it on the line for him. I tried to tell him about how to me it seemed like he wasn't aware that there was a friendship to save there ( a good one too dammit, or at least, it used to be :'( :-/ ) and he wasn't trying to help at all, he was just trying to be my boyfriend again, which duh, isn't good, becuase I have a boyfriend right now, and I really really like him (ask me about that another time, it's weird even to me), and aside from that, Jim's not trustworthy in the least, so theres a lose lose situation there for him, which how many times did I try to explain in that damn notebook? I was even all specific then, I gave examples, straight out answers, always truthful, but nooooo Heaven forbid Adrienne want a little space from the whole big mess, because you know, having you're first boyfriend ever when you were a non-believer before and had avoided it for years flat out lie to you for 6 months about something that is strangely very important to you, no that doesn't fuck with a girl's mind, not at all. So I told Jim all this and I asked him, am I wrong, I mean, are you going to defend yourself, or give me a compromise, which honestly I was expecting. I was thinking that this would end in a deal or something, like, he'd behave and do what I asked for once and we wouldn't hang out alone or anything. Is it sad to say he was always a jerk, stereotypically, when we were alone, or, well, no, he was plenty jerky enough when Car was over that day, and when his cousins were over that other time, so, scratch that. Mostly when we're alone.
But no, he just sighed and said Why??? and was practically crying, and you know what, damn him, that worked way better on giving me the guilt trip than anything else he could have done, but I just said sorry, and hung up. It was hard at first, I'm ashamed to admit, but everytime I wanted to call him, all I had to do was think about the last few conversations we'd had when I was looking for someone to cheer me up. He just went on a rant about how if he was my boyfriend again, or why wasn't I calling my boyfriend about it, or finding some way to make me feel bad about Tom, and just, grr not good. He made me cry one night. Ergo, Im not speaking with the kid, and it's gotten easier, because I have my Carla darling and My Girls =) =p and Tom lol.
You know I wrote all this is my paper Journal too, or, well most of it, but im repeating it here. That's ok, the only people who look ehre anymore are probably the occasional Car or Liss or Sam and they know all this, or well, the important parts in between all the rambling. It's the rambling thats making me feel better, and the typing, actually. Writing usually soothes me, so this isn't abnormal.
lets see what else should the world know about me?
I went to Albany for a random shopping trip with the Pauli girls and my mum. That was insanly fun, actually, for shopping leastways. I tried on a dress and a skirt, are we scared yet? I actually bought one, but Im not telling which one, or why :-p Shhhhh! It's a surprise and it goes back to I really like the boyfriend I have now, it's rather scary actually, not to mention I'm spoiled with GREAT guys, or at least the last two. (((of a whole whopping 3)) but he goes away in september and after that, Im thinking I'm gonna lay low for a while, take a nice break, with no Rank breathing down my neck (that's Jim, Jim Rank), and no age old crush popping up and making me like him back (he's so cute with Celesta now lol, even though they're kinda...hmmm, lets not go there, cute is putting it mildly?) and no really cute & nice senoirs. *sigh of relief* sounds like a vacation that i have a unsettling feeling won't last long because I have this guy karma thing going on idk. I could be wrong. And i cant help but notice that Carla is missing her romance, and Im well, Im certainly not anxious to get away from it (see above about happiness with current b.f.) but i'd be content with a little quiet, is all. Fat chance with flowers on my table from Mike R. but it was very sweet of him. idk, I dont really want to think of the future, because summer's ending and, I dont want it too =( lol. Think about it c'mon. Summer ends and no (1) Darien Lake even though we're going once (2) random Mission impossible and skygazeing awesome ness (3) most importantly, CarlaCake!! =( =o ! (4) 2nd most importantly, Tom =( (5) lazing about all day lol and there will be classes, school, drama, friends though,w hich is good though.
well I think Im done, gosh this is long lol.